super bummed after midwife meeting

So, I paid $70 for a copy of my medical records, got a babysitter for my dr, took the records to my first appointment with the midwife today, sat in the waiting room for half an hour filling out paperwork, did a urine sample only to be called back to the midwife's office and have her tell me that they couldn't accept me as a patient :-( I am *way* *super* bummed. They can't take me on because they feel I'm just slightly too high risk for their practice because of the blood pressure issues I had in my last pregnancy and because my bp has been a little on the high side already this pregnancy. I'm so disappointed. I really want to have a natural child birth and felt like this midwife practice was in synch with what I wanted for my birth experiance. I guess I'll be sticking with my current OB now. I don't dislike them, and I do feel well taken care of there, but their philosophy toward natural birth is that "you're certainly welcome to TRY it". like most OB's. Ugh. Unfortunately, this is really the only midwife practice in my immediate area and even if there were others, I doubt they would take me on if this one wouldn't. I'm just going to hope and pray that my body does what it is supposed to this time around goes into labor on it's own! That way I can labor for as long as possible at home, reducing the likelihood of interventions at the hospital. Good thing didn't cancel my next appointment with my OB which is on Friday.