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|Tue, 08-13-2013 - 12:54pm|
Okay... so this is #3 for me, #2 for the hubs. We tried for almost 3 years to get pregnant with our last, so when we finally saw the + sign, we were ecstatic! Now here we are, a little over a year since we had our DD, and we are pregnant again. We weren't trying, but also not preventing. I am 38 so we decided to leave the "window open" until I was 39 or so, and then start preventing. And I think because it took so long to get pregnant last time, that both of us just assumed we wouldn't get pregnant again. But lo and behold, that + sign showed up! We are happy, but instead of crying tears of happiness we both just stood there staring at the test in disbelief. My husband is a full-time student, and graduates this year. A few months later, I will be taking my maternity leave. Things will be so tight if he doesn't get a job right away... there is just a lot of different factors this time around. I just want to feel happy and get excited, but for some reason I haven't allowed myself to. I'm nervous about telling my oldest daughter (11) there's going to be another baby, I'm nervous to tell my job I'm taking another leave (since I got cracks about my age last time, I can only imagine)... and my moods have been allllll over the place, just not a happy happy joy joy place. Hoping the excitement will kick in after my first appointment next week. Has anyone else been having mixed emotions about their pregnancy? It's like I feel guilty feeling the way I've been feeling. Bottom line is I know it is such a blessing for us to be having another baby, it's just all a little overwhelming right now I think....