overly anxious and emotional
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|Thu, 07-26-2012 - 11:52pm|
I'm 22 weeks today and I've been crying at the drop of a hat. Mostly to country songs. I'm feeling the baby kick regularly now and I'm bonding with HIM (as opposed to the abstract baby that I knew was in there somewhere...). It seems like I'm constantly holding my breath trying to get to the next milestone that will make me feel comfortable with this pregnancy. I'm almost, but quite at the viable age. I have a feeling I will never stop worrying.
My blood pressure has been creeping back up to my pre-pregnancy numbers. The first 20 weeks naturally lowered it to normal levels. My numbers aren't crazy high (130's/80's at the highest), but I still worry that it will progress into pre-e. My mom had it with my older brother.
I've spent the majority of my pregnancy cautiously optimistic and somewhat detached. Now that I've let myself bond and get excited about the baby, I can't even imagine how I'd feel if something were to go wrong.
Sorry I'm being such a debbie downer. I'm just having a hard time getting past my fears.