I fail- yet again

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I fail- yet again
Mon, 09-10-2012 - 9:10pm
Sereinty had her first week check up and she is losing weight not gaining. She seems constipated and has been really fussy. The doctor agreed she's badly toung tied, but said I'm probably not making enough milk. So I have to take meds again to make more milk. She is my thrid baby and second time trying to breastfeed and the first one I failed at and failing at this one as well. I know I shoudn't look at it like that but I do. I have had a bad day and to know I been trying my best to what is best for my little girl, I'm in fact might me causing her pain. :smileysad:
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Registered: 08-08-2011
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Tue, 09-11-2012 - 10:09am

Welcome to the club...... I have the same issue. With DD 2 years ago..I BARELY pumped 2-3 ounces at a time, and even after working with TWO lactation specialists, taking Fenugreek AND REGLAN to amp up my supply.... It dwindled to NOTHING by the time she was 3 weeks old. I had to take what little I pumped, and mix it with formula.

Enter DS 3 weeks ago.....While in the hospital..they had me PUMP every 2 hours even though at first all I was getting was a few drops of colostrum. By day 3...I was pumping 4-6 ounces every 3 hours..I was SO EXCITED...because I actually had a STASH of frozen BM in the freezer. I STILL had to feed him a mix of formula/BM...because the Pediatricial wanted him to have higher calories..because he was ALSO losing weight.

So.....4 days ago..POOF....My milk is GONE. I mean..seriously..I am pumping AIR...nothing, nada. I was bummed. This is partially because I have thyroid disease and MEGA high metabolism. I have lost EVERY ounce of pregnanncy weight already (by week 3)...and it effects my supply. I am just NOT a good COW....and I hate it. I don;t feel guilty..because I REALLY tried..... I just hate tat I only have about another week supply of BM in the freezer for him.

My DD turned out PERFECT, despite not having been exclusively breastfed..and was on formula since she was 3 weeks old. She is actaully ADVANCED (intelligence and milestone wise....)

Don;t beat yourself up..and don;t stress out.... The important thing is that our babies EAT SOMETHING. Some of us are JUST not able to BF as well as others....it doesn;t make us BAD mothers.

Jackson..is the Fussiest Newborn I EVER encountered...... but, even when my sanity is wavering.... I know it is just a phase...he will outgrow it. He has trouble pooping too...so I have to stick a thermometer up his butt every couple of days and poke around to Promote his Pooping..and it works..and he feels BETTER after he poos. It isn;t ideal...but hey, whatever works!

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Registered: 06-06-2001
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Tue, 09-11-2012 - 12:02pm

You are not a failure.  I was back at the pediatricians today with Jamilyn.  She had lost a pound in the hospital and needed to be reweighed today.  She's lost another 1/2 ounce so we go back again in yet another week.  If she doesn't start gaining, she's talking formula.  In our case, she's jaundiced and sleeps quite a bit.  So I now have to wake her up every 3 hours for feedings.  Like Lindsay, I too have thyroid disease.  I only have 3 lbs of my pregnancy weight left to lose, but my milk supply seems ok.  She pees a lot and poops a lot.  It's the sleepiness working against us.  That being said, I had to really fight to work through the nipple pain that first week.  I still have pain at times as she's such a tight latcher.  It would have been so easy for me to say "the pain isn't worth it.  And that's my point, you're trying everything you can which does NOT make you a failure.  Hugs!