First Pregnancy is an Ectopic Pregnancy :(

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First Pregnancy is an Ectopic Pregnancy :(
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Sat, 03-09-2013 - 12:17am

Hi,

I'm 42 years old, have PCOS, was recently diagnosed with mild hypothyroidism, and went through my second fertility treatment (Clomid and Ovidrel after a first round of Ovidrel). I got a positive pregnancy test on February 14, and was naturally very happy about it, only to discover that things didn't look good on February 20, as my HcG levels had actually fallen, was told that I was being monitored for a possible ectopic pregnancy on Feb. 22, and then it was confirmed on Feb. 26. I had my second Methotrexate injection two days ago. My HcG levels then rose and have now plateaued. I'm 5 weeks along (7 weeks if they add 2 extra weeks), and they still can't see where the blastocyte implanted but it's not in my uterus.

This was my first pregnancy after so many months of trying to conceive (I had actually started that process in October 2011 but had to interrupt it when I started experiencing heavy bleeding from an abnormal period in March 2012). I'm very disappointed and feel very alone. A part of me is happy and grateful that I got this far but a big part of me feels terrible. Would appreciate some support; most of my friends are younger than I am and either don't want/have kids or are successfully pregnant/are done having kids. Thanks in advance

Sapna

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Sat, 03-09-2013 - 10:06pm

Hi Sapna.  I'm so sorry for your loss, especially after a long and frustrating ttc journey.  That's how my ectopic was, too.  I hope your hcg levels will fall and that physically, your recovery will be uneventful.  Give yourself time for emotional healing to take place.  We're here if you need someone to talk to along the way.  Thankfully, with the internet, you never have to feel too alone, even if you don't have friends who can relate to what you're experiencing.  Sending lots of {{{HUGS}}} your way.


Sue
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Sun, 03-10-2013 - 11:12pm
Thanks so much for the kind words, Vegiemama. Thankfully, today, I felt a little better, emotionally. My HcG levels are starting to fall faster now; been experience cramping and bleeding like a painful menstrual period, so that's considered a good sign. I'm going to take this one day at a time, and take a recommended 3-month break from TTC, to let my body and mind heal. Glad I found this board. If you're still TTC, I hope you have a successful pregnancy, as well in the near future. (((hugs)))) for you, too. Sapna
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Sun, 03-10-2013 - 11:30pm
I meant, "been experiencing cramping and bleeding..." I typed too fast!
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Sun, 03-10-2013 - 11:32pm

I'm sorry you're experiencing this, but it does sound like the mtx is doing what it's supposed to do.  I hope it will be over for you soon.  Taking a break to heal will be good.  Maybe you can do something special to commemorate your little angel...with spring coming, plant a plant or a tree, etc.  

My ttc days are long over and done with.  I'm here for the btdt support, and to cheer on those who are back in the ttc game.  Thanks for the wishes though.


Sue
Homeschooling mom to DD15 & DS11

CL of Homeschooling, Signature Showcase, Ectopic Loss, and Fertility Charting

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Mon, 03-11-2013 - 3:33pm
I'm so sorry Sapna :( You've been through so much just to get to this point, I would feel frustrated and angry in your place as well. (((HUGS)))

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Fri, 03-15-2013 - 3:47am
Thanks so much for the kind words, Melissa. Sapna