I would be heading into my second trimester today

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I would be heading into my second trimester today
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Wed, 02-08-2012 - 6:42pm

UGGHH!!

I would be 13 weeks today..... Starting my second trimester.... I would have told more people today.

But now I just have to tell those very few who knew that I lost the baby. Of course. it's hard when the few people I told I was pregnant go and tell a few of their friends/family and then I run into them and they just grin at me and ask how I am feeling and if I have a due date.... I have to awkwardly tell them the hard news. Ughhh! I feel like just wearing a shirt that says, 'Don't ask"! and on the back "Pregnant women walk away- don't let me see you".

It's hard to put things into words. I feel a little less angry. Each day is definately better. I try not to think about how many weeks I would be and if my tummy would be poking out. But there are moments that I do dwell on these things and I can't shake it. I really wish this hadn't happened. I know it would have been hard, but I know that it would have worked out. This summer is going to be a struggle, since I would have been due in August. I just wish I knew what had happened... I wish I could have seen the ultrasound....

Just sucks!

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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(((HUGS))). I know how you feel. It's hard not to think of it sometimes. We were suppose to have an appointment on Feb 15th and were going to announce after that. Next week will be really hard =\. Hope you are able to find some peace soon.

Jenn (28) & DH Zach (28)
Married 9/24/2005

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Registered: 03-28-2010

Yeah, I should be about 16 weeks & everyone on the July EC board is finding out the gender (I can't help but peek over there to see what they are doing & where they are in their pregnancy)....it's hard!

But, get this! I have a crazy, alcoholic father, who is losing brain cells, and getting crazier with each day that passes.....I am not close to him, at all, in fact the last time I saw him, in person was 9 years ago. But, I will talk to him on the phone here & there.

Anyways, I told him (when I lost the baby), that I lost the baby & his only response was, "well, you are too old anyway to be having a child!" (ggggrrrr

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend

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Registered: 01-11-2012

YES, it sucks.

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Registered: 01-11-2012

OUCH.

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>>I had to start feeling sorry for THEM.

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend