having a hard time

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Registered: 11-28-2011
having a hard time
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Sun, 01-22-2012 - 12:47am

I went back to work this week, which was okay. If I stayed busy, if I had any down time I found myself very sad and fighting back tears. Today I went out shopping, first time since I found out Ihad miscarried. I was in Old Navy and I was doing ok, until I rounded the corner and WHAM walked right into the maternity section. It literally took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes. I quickly exited the store.

I just cry out of the blue sometimes. I just miss the excitement and the being pregnant. I feel stupid having cravings... I will never eat another chicken wing again.

It's just a sad time right now.......i can't escape babies or pregnant women. It's just not fair. I am estranged from the father, and have no desire to be with a man, which makes me scared that I will never have another baby.

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Sun, 01-22-2012 - 11:26am
I'm so sorry you are feeling so alone. I have many people just in my home to lean on and I'm having a hard time. I'm glad you can come here and "talk" when you need to.

You are cometely normal, no matter what your family says. You lost a child and have every right to grieve. A loss is a loss. It's heartbreaking and life changing. The second you see those two lines you picture the first time you hold him/her, first steps, first days of school, graduation, marriage, grand kids....all in a moment. There's no turning back after that, this is your child. I wish I was there to help you but just remember your grief is real and you have every right to fell what you are feeling. (((BIG HUGS))).

Jenn (28) & DH Zach (28)
Married 9/24/2005

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Sun, 01-22-2012 - 10:22pm
I'm so sorry you do not have a support system .. It is so hard even with one ... Your pain is normal .. It takes time to heal ... Know that you are not alone and this a perfect place to come and cry ...even if not everyone answers others might be to down to respond but just reading how you are feeling might help others validate how they are feeling KWIM ?hugs to you
April
Loving wife to John
Mom to Tristan 4/20/96
and now to Jack 9/15/10
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Registered: 11-13-2008
Mon, 01-23-2012 - 3:20pm

Big (((HUGS)), try to ignore the others that are being unsupportive and do what you need to do to get through this.

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Registered: 01-11-2012
Tue, 01-31-2012 - 4:50pm

I hope today is an easier day for you.