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prestonsmommy2010

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Registered: 12-27-2010

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Fri, 02-11-2011 - 11:36pm

I actually think I am doing well, most days anyway...I returned to work this week and have had to deal with students asking if I had my baby....I started by just answering the question asked: "did you have your baby?"..."yes"...what is his name? "Preston"...but some of the students had heard that he had died so they asked....anyway, I told them that yes, he did and left it at that...thank goodness it was my last class of the day and I was able to go have a little cry. My doctor said she did not think I was coping well with the loss and wanted to put me on "something"...it seems to be helping...I still think about Preston and the loss and wish like crazy that I could go back to Dec. 15th and have him back, but I don't cry as much anymore, so I guess that is how the meds are working...anyway, I think it is totally unfair that life has to go on without my baby but it does and I will get through this...so, I guess my answer is, I am doing well, most days anyway...

Cmmelissa

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Registered: 11-13-2008

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Mon, 02-14-2011 - 2:42pm

Melissa
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stillpraying4baby

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Registered: 04-13-2010

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Mon, 02-14-2011 - 7:44pm

I would say that I'm doing as best as I can with what I have. My "coping strategy" is to not think about it. If I don't think about it, it doesn't hurt. I feel like the little kid who says try and find me then covers his/her eyes - if I can't see you, you're not there - kind of thing. It may not be the healthiest, but it works for me. I try to keep as busy as possible. I work full time and I've also decided to go back to school for nursing. I'm hoping that in the end I will be a nurse at the hospital where Landon was delivered on the maternity floor and I hope to be involved in their bereavement program. I think it would hurt when others experience a loss, but I believe I could help them - and hopefully myself in the process. So when I'm not working, I spend hours on school work, hours on facebook and hours on IV. I just busy myself, it's all I know how to do at the moment, and for now, it's working.

Cmmelissa

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Registered: 11-13-2008

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Tue, 02-15-2011 - 3:22pm

(((HUGS))) Torie, I think it's great that you are going for you nursing degree.

Melissa
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nolanmama

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Registered: 10-06-2010

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Tue, 03-08-2011 - 5:03pm

Hi, Melissa Well I have been thinking about what I wanted to say..And I realised that I have been at a turning point. I have been so indifferent about TTC again that it has completely taking over my daily thoughts. After some serious consideration and prayer I approached my husband for a "Ready to talk about where we go from here plan?". And after alot of tears and consoling, we have decided due to my age and the risk factors of TTC again, we are not!..WOW!!.. I really said it outloud!. And yes it hurts but we have 3 healthy kids and I can't go through the emotional roller coaster of another pregnancy, It was so close with Nolan (4 weeks left) and I just can't go through it again. he will always be part of our family, and waiting for me. So my tears have been many as we approach our 6 month mark. I will embrace my love ones and my lord and be happy with what he has gave me. I know each day I get stronger and each one better then the last. my new path is to live and love life again!!..I will keep all the beauitful women here in my prayers as they look for their Rainbows, ....Star

Cmmelissa

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Registered: 11-13-2008

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Wed, 03-09-2011 - 1:28pm

(((HUGS))) I know this had to have been a tough decision to make. Sending you lots of P&PTs, we'll always be here for you.

Melissa
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nolanmama

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Registered: 10-06-2010

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Wed, 03-09-2011 - 5:42pm

Thanks...:). This is a wonderful place for people to help each other.

emily_elisabeth

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Registered: 03-13-2011

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Fri, 03-25-2011 - 10:49pm

Hi there...I am coping pretty well with the loss of Violet now.

emily_elisabeth

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Registered: 03-13-2011

In reply to: Cmmelissa

Sat, 03-26-2011 - 3:31am

Tori...I just made the connection to who you are...I got a invite to your 'remembering Landon' 1st birthday event for today on Facebook, I can't remember who sent it but I figured you must be from this board. Anyway, HUGS. Violets one year is coming up this mother's day too. Hang in there <3 lots of love to you and your angels.

stillpraying4baby

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Registered: 04-13-2010

In reply to: Cmmelissa