Holiday Blues...................

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Registered: 04-24-2007
Holiday Blues...................
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Mon, 11-23-2009 - 11:23am

Well, I thought by now (7 months after our loss) I would not necessarily be having such a hard time as the holidays approach, but I am.

Mimi

*Remembering Our Angel Baby Edward Scott  4/

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Registered: 09-29-2009
Mon, 11-23-2009 - 12:25pm

I want to start off by telling you how sorry I am that the holidays are proving difficult for you. I wish I could say that I understand how you feel but as much as we are all fighting the same battle, we all have such different stories. I can imagine that you pictured Edward's first Christmas many times throughout your pregnancy, just as I did with my Zachary... I can imagine that you had seen things that you would have bought for him had he been here with you. I know that hurt and that disappointment and that frustration and I am sorry that you are feeling it. I hope that you find comfort with us here on this board and that remember all the positive things that your baby brought to your life. I think it's the only way that we can move forward and keep putting one foot in front of the other.


Though I only lost Zachary 4 1/2 months ago, I've noticed that I tend to build up events in my mind and I imagine how horrible and intolerable they will be... but they're never as bad as I imagine they'll be.


Just remember that with every milestone we make it through, we are stronger for having survived it. Every day that passes is a testament to our strength as mothers!


Happy holidays, Mimi! I hope that they turn out a million times better than you imagine!


Hugs!


Sandra

Sandra


Mommy to Sadie (10-26-2003) and Zachary (born sleeping 07-08-2009)

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Sandra


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Registered: 09-16-2008
Mon, 11-23-2009 - 1:49pm

I understand. I put my Christmas tree up today and all I could think about was my baby Hope and how she won't be here. It is so depressing. And my husband is deployed. It's just me and Kaycie. I get to pick up my step daughter the week before Christmas I pray that that will help me get through the holidays.

I thought this was suppose to get easier, but it seems like everyday it gets harder.

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             &nbs

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Registered: 10-15-2009
Mon, 11-23-2009 - 3:48pm

I totally understand! My mom was in town with us this last weekend, so we put our Christmas tree too, and I cried and cried. All I could think about was how our baby Luke should be with us this Christmas (just like you said). We are getting him an ornament too. These are such hard times.... it's comforting to know that you are not alone though. Wouldn't it be great if we all got BFPs before Christmas?? Here's hoping! I hope you have a good Thanksgiving.

Andrea

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Registered: 04-24-2007
Mon, 11-23-2009 - 7:25pm

Sandra, thank you for your kind words.

Mimi

*Remembering Our Angel Baby Edward Scott  4/

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Mon, 11-23-2009 - 7:27pm
Thank you my kind friends. Your words and encouragement are what help me in the darkest days.

Mimi

*Remembering Our Angel Baby Edward Scott  4/