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|Fri, 03-19-2010 - 9:23pm|
Honest truth. I want a living, crying, screaming baby in my arms. I want to photograph every single second of his/her life, I want to hear giggles and coos, I want to watch my husband comfort a crying infant, and rock them to sleep.
I want another baby. I want Isaiah. I need a living child.
I know its been a while since I posted, it is difficult to see so many graduate from this board, and here we are 16months ttc. and it sucks. I am so happy for everyone here, I really am, and I hate that I am jealous.
If anyone cares, I am having surgery on the 9th to remove endometriosis, something I both look forward to and dread all at the same time. I hope that this holds the keys and answers that we have been waiting sooo long for. I pray that this will be the last chapter in our struggle for another child, and that we will be able to start a new story, a new chapter, and a new life with a happy healthy living baby in our arms.
How can you get pregnant so easily and unexpectedly the first time, and this time around have nothing but issues????!! *sigh*
I hope that spring brings us all what we wish for and desire.
All my love,