Dreams turning into plans

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Registered: 04-03-2011
Dreams turning into plans
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Fri, 08-12-2011 - 2:46am

I have wanted a baby all my life. At 23 I got married, and baby fever came to me. I married a man too old to have more kids, who had 4 grown kids of his own. (It was a much older man.) That relationship is over and I am free. I met B. Last April, and I have faith that are troubles will be solved and thing will work themselves out. He is the right man for me, and will make a wonderful Daddy. For most of my life I have had an eating disorder that has made me severely underweight. It has almost killed me many times. Thanks to having B. In my life I have hope right now, and am in treatment. This means putting on about 23 pounds. I should be there by December. I have had a disability for years, and got off path in tears of getting a job. I have decided to start a company of my own, and in January of 2012 will be in school full time for that. It's a trade job, so I will also need to learn how to sew, and draw for it. That will start when I get out of treatment. I go in tomorrow for 30 days hopefully, and then home and to partial treatment. Life is how I want it to be, right now. I am enjoying my life, and have a good one. I am living in the present and enjoying my freedom. I have also thought of what I want to do before the babies come. Fashion Designs school and travel come to mind. I want to live in another country for a bit. I also want to go to an arts school and get a fine arts certificate in fashion desire. Life is good! I'm where I want to be for the most part, and after a life time of not being there it feels great. I have great friends and family around me. And I live near Washington DC and love it. I'm enjoying hanging out with friends, shopping, reading, and just relaxing. And though I have baby fever to the extreme I also have peace and joy in the moment. And that feels good. I like that I can count my blessings today and enjoy the wonderful life that is in front of me. I no longer live in the hopes and dreams of the future, baring the moment and waiting for things to get good.

Peace and Love,

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Registered: 04-17-2009
Fri, 08-12-2011 - 5:38pm
That is wondeful, Gracie! I love your attitude about life and it sounds like you have good plans. I wish you all the best in your recovery, your relationship and your career goals!

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