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|Mon, 06-02-2003 - 2:55pm|
After I left here, so much happened that completely changed my perspective of things. My brother had come up to visit and we ended up partying a lot and I ended up rekindling some friendships from my hometown. My other brother found out aroudn then that he was being deployed overseas for the war. For some reason, this combination made me realize that my youth is already too short, and I just wasn't willing to give up my freedom just yet. I decided I wanted to get the partying and hanging out with friends out of the way first.
Other things occurred that just had me re-evaluate. I quit my job and DH and I thought we'd be okay living off my financial aid. That was a joke. We were really irresponsible with it. I'm now trying to get a part time job for the summer while I also go to school. Living with little - no money, being in debt and not being able to keep up on bills made me realize that how lucky we are now not to have kids in this siutation. It's okay for us to struggle and live on ramen for months, but I can't even imagine having dragged someone else into this situation. It made me realize that I really need to put more of a focus on my education and future career.
I hope this all doesn't sound negative! DH and I are otherwise doing great. He and I are as happy as can be, especially dealing with a lot of other things that have happened, but that stuff are all downers, so I won't get into that.
I think we're lucky that we've come to this realization now, rather than later. I would still be very happy, but I think we'll be a lot happier this way. I still get baby fever when I hear a baby or see baby stuff, but the knowledge of how much better off we'll be if we wait is so much greater.
So, with all this babbling (hehe), in the end it's come down to I want to wait until I at least finish my degree. I'm taking real estate courses in the hopes that I can still have somewhat of a career, or at least decent job while working through school. Then, when all is said and done, DH and I can become the yuppy parents we want to be ;).
I wish you all luck and hope you are all doing well! Sarah, Ill be checking back next month in hopes for some pictures!