Scared i might be pregnant - not ready
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|Tue, 09-14-2010 - 8:12pm|
I'm 34 and just got married in May so I guess it seems silly to say I'm not ready for a baby but I'm not sure if I want kids and not this soon that is for sure. I hope my email is appropriate here with all these details please accept my apology if not.
Well, long story short, after 17 yrs of being on the pill it was making me CRAZY with mood swings, etc., so I stopped taking it in June. My husband knows my fear is getting pregnant so we've been really careful, I'm one that obsessively took the pill on time.
After stopping the pill, I got my period exactly on time since so I know that means "fertility" more so than usual right now yikes! And my husband is gone alot so not ever even home when I'm ovulating, but he had an overnight in our town Saturday so I joined him in the hotel. Not to be too graphic, but for the first time ever we used the "pull out and pray" method and I didn't think anything of it really other than "let's never do this again and pack condoms ALWAYS".
Sunday I noticed one little spot of blood which was random and strange but thought "whatever". Last night I noticed my stomach was upset and cramps front and back and they have continued all day. I feel out of it and a little dizzy and my sense of smell is more engaged than usual. A co-worker had soup that smelled so good and then after my own lunch I almost got sick. Now all these things could be the flu, but my back just aches and I'm just tired and I've been peeing ALL THE TIME. Literally, right before I walk the dog, then I have to right when I get back in. And then suddenly I was like OMG. I know it is too soon and it sounds CRAZY but I've NEVER thought "oh no I'm pregnant" and I've never even taken a home preg test. Ever. So anyway, my husband thinks I'm crazy but I don't know....I just feel different. I then did the math and realized I was ovulating right around this weekend. (Oh and I get some cramps before my period, but only for a day before my period which isn't due for a few weeks yet.)
Just wanted to see if anyone else has gone through this when they were NOT TTC. If I was TTC I could see that maybe I was wanting it so bad that I was noticing all possible feelings as preggo, but I don't even want this. (Though if I am, I am.) I also wanted to introduce myself for the present or the future, depending on the next few weeks I guess. Thanks ladies and nice to meet you!