That's a good idea, Becki. I am in school right now to get my master's degree, so that does keep me fairly busy, especially this week during finals. You'd think I would have enough on my plate not to think about it!
Yesterday was one of those days when I was about to pull my hair out with the twins. They were cranky, not sleeping well for nap, threw all their dinner on the floor, and just generally being unpleasant. Instead of thinking "am I crazy for wanting another one?" I actually thought how nice it would be to have a little little baby again that can be comforted just by cuddles and a good breastfeeding session. I thought "at least I would know that *someone* in our family was content!"
I feel like an oddball even saying this:
Jules - Happily married and Momma to DS, DD and expecting our Caboose Baby 11/24/2012
LOL, amberlee. I do have those moments too. Today will probably be one of those days. My husband won't be home until after the twins' bedtime so I'll be taking care of them all by myself. I hear them throwing tantrums with the part-time nanny downstairs right now, so it may be a rough day. It's times like that when I think about how hard it would be to have a newborn on top of that.
But then I just think about that tiny little body that I'll be baby wearing and breast feeding and think, how hard can it be?
Yes, it's logically-minded people like you, Devin, that remind me just how much I think with my heart and emotions instead of my brain! We have reasons for waiting too, but those reasons could be important enough to push it off for literally years. Now that we've decided to start in May, I keep thinking "That's only 2.5 months away. What's the difference of 2.5 months over the course of a lifetime?"
I love your last sentence. My heart beats baby too.