Well, the Metallica concerts are over for me. What a wild week--shows were absolutely awesome and we had an incredible amount of fun. But, since January when we bought the concert tickets I have patiently waited for July to come around because I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I did not want to get pg before these concerts so the WTT was easy. But now, the concerts are over and part of me wants to approach my DH before the first of August about the issue of TTC and part of me wants to avoid it all together. I was disappointed last night when he used a condom--I knew less than 24 hours after the concert was too soon to TTC, but I was still bothered a little bit by it. I just don't know what my next step should be or how soon this issue should be brought up. I was thinking last night after we went to bed that maybe I would wait and see if he brings it up (after all, we only have four condoms left in the box), but then I also don't want to be on here 10 years from now WTT #1 because DH never approached the subject.
I'm getting pretty nervous about the whole thing anyway--it just really seems like it might happen soon and I've never been this close before. I'm just so confused--part of me wants a baby by spring/summer and the other part of me wants to wait because Metallica is supposed to tour again in the spring. What is up with that? I love Metallica and all, but they aren't my life! Why am I being selfish with myself now? Surely DH's influence isn't that powerful--LOL. This is driving me crazy--I think I'm going to go look for a brick wall to beat my head up against. . . .