I guess its been crappy all around for us here lately. I wake up every morning & the 1st feeling I get is incredible sadness & all I want to do is cry. Is there a reason for it? I have no idea. Maybe its the time of the yr., Eric 1st got sick around Halloween in 2008, he got strp throat or something. I guess he never recovered fully even tho he appeared to until right around xmas. The rest is history. I wonder if I'm suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome, I remeber feeling very weepy & uneasy last yr. but nothing compared to now. Don't bother telling me I should see someone, I have & I've been told I handled everything just fine & all I'm feeling is normal.
I've gained 20 lbs since about last March, look like crap & feel like crap. I'm still unpacking, I get no help except from Eric who gets winded easily, I move things I shouldn't be moving & in general shouldn't be doing period. I have no choice because its just me. Throw in the fact I'm up every morning at 4 I have the alarm set for 5 but I guess I'm either afraid of sleeping thru it or I'm back in my hospital pattern where I would wake up at 4 & call the hospital.
Nik is getting a ton of projects & work, she has the same teachers as last yr, not by choice. I would have welcomed a change. She's on tetracylcline for her face which is not looking any better, its only 1 side thats all broken out horribly. I have to keep reminding her to wash her face, put her elastics in her mouth for her braces, get all her homework done, etc. Why is it me who has to do all the reminding around here? I do for everyone else & let me go. I have absolutely no life of my own anymore.
I know we're better then we were a yr. ago so why do i feel so crappy?
Kathy I'm happy you managed to get thru to E, waiting those 9 mos. can make all the difference in the world. As for you being the babies main caretaker I guess we do what we need to do. All of us on this board do what we need to do. Sometimes I feel embarrassed because I'm a grand raising a child, like our family just didn't do something right. kwim?
I'll start w/you Kathy, I feel like crap I've never been heavy (fat) nothing fits me. I went to try & buy pants yesterday & nothing fit. So I have to do something & fast. I don't eat much so I figure I'm going to have to start walking. I do have to start eating healthier.
Dee you need to find someone that you can talk to and get the support you need. This isn't easy as many T's will just tell you everything you feel is normal. Just becouse it's normal that doesn't mean that you don't need someone to talk to and get feed back from.
Normal means you are dealing well and working though the feelings and have been able to talk through them. and for some of us that can take a long time to get our mind to go along with what we know is right. You not only had a health issue with your DH but you had and still have family issues that haven't and might never be better.
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I guess its been crappy all around for us here lately. I wake up every morning & the 1st feeling I get is incredible sadness & all I want to do is cry. Is there a reason for it? I have no idea. Maybe its the time of the yr., Eric 1st got sick around Halloween in 2008, he got strp throat or something. I guess he never recovered fully even tho he appeared to until right around xmas. The rest is history. I wonder if I'm suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome, I remeber feeling very weepy & uneasy last yr. but nothing compared to now. Don't bother telling me I should see someone, I have & I've been told I handled everything just fine & all I'm feeling is normal.
I've gained 20 lbs since about last March, look like crap & feel like crap. I'm still unpacking, I get no help except from Eric who gets winded easily, I move things I shouldn't be moving & in general shouldn't be doing period. I have no choice because its just me. Throw in the fact I'm up every morning at 4 I have the alarm set for 5 but I guess I'm either afraid of sleeping thru it or I'm back in my hospital pattern where I would wake up at 4 & call the hospital.
Nik is getting a ton of projects & work, she has the same teachers as last yr, not by choice. I would have welcomed a change. She's on tetracylcline for her face which is not looking any better, its only 1 side thats all broken out horribly. I have to keep reminding her to wash her face, put her elastics in her mouth for her braces, get all her homework done, etc. Why is it me who has to do all the reminding around here? I do for everyone else & let me go. I have absolutely no life of my own anymore.
I know we're better then we were a yr. ago so why do i feel so crappy?
Kathy I'm happy you managed to get thru to E, waiting those 9 mos. can make all the difference in the world. As for you being the babies main caretaker I guess we do what we need to do. All of us on this board do what we need to do. Sometimes I feel embarrassed because I'm a grand raising a child, like our family just didn't do something right. kwim?
Wow, Dee.
One other thing I don't like - I didn't mean to post, I was still editing.
Kathy you are very right my house my rules as long as they are basic ones like time going to be home,
Colleen I have seen and know how bad they can be, I feel very lucky that we have never had to deal with them like some families we know have.
I'll start w/you Kathy, I feel like crap I've never been heavy (fat) nothing fits me. I went to try & buy pants yesterday & nothing fit. So I have to do something & fast. I don't eat much so I figure I'm going to have to start walking. I do have to start eating healthier.
Dee you need to find someone that you can talk to and get the support you need. This isn't easy as many T's will just tell you everything you feel is normal. Just becouse it's normal that doesn't mean that you don't need someone to talk to and get feed back from.
Normal means you are dealing well and working though the feelings and have been able to talk through them. and for some of us that can take a long time to get our mind to go along with what we know is right. You not only had a health issue with your DH but you had and still have family issues that haven't and might never be better.
Are you ableto talk to
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