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|Thu, 02-06-2014 - 5:04pm|
Hi, I'm new to iVillage. My friend recommended I join because I've been dealing with depression. Im 28, a stepmom to 3 kids: boy 12, boy 10, and girl 7. Ive been with them for 4 years, married a year and a half. My husband has sole legal and physical custody; their BM has supervised standard visitation at her parents house. Other things: he was19 when oldest was born, middle is not his biological child and appears to be another ethnicity. Middle son doesn't know, or hasn't been told.
Im so overwhelmed. Im a high school teacher, so I work full time but my schedule is such that I am the primary caretaker of the kids. I'm with them after school every day and all summer. Obviously BM hates me, she blames me for everything wrong in her life. Honestly, I hate her too.
The depression is new. I cry all the time. I'm disconnected from the kids. I don't want to play with them or even be around them. Other things have happened, most recently my husbands mother taking BM to lunch and the dog I've had since I was 15 dying from cancer.
I don't know how to get better. I feel alone. My husband is very supportive but he's all I have.