SIGH!

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Registered: 07-31-2003
SIGH!
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Sun, 12-24-2006 - 5:56pm

Yes, its Christmas Eve and I'm on the computer! I'm kinda in the dumps and thought I'd ramble a bit - now's your chance to hit the "back" or "forward button" ha ha! Ever since my mom passed away from cancer 5 years ago our family hasnt been the same. My sister doesnt get along with my dad or brother (long story) so every Christmas it ends up that our family is split apart - my sister with her grown children and me with my family and dad and brother. My daughter doesnt understand why we "all cant just get along". I'm with her on this one and had it out with my sister a week ago. Well, now she's not talking to me and its been wearing on me a lot. We dont have many close couple friends either (my husband is quite anti-social but thats for another board) so its been a very uneventful Christmas socially. I am the opposite of him and find it all so very depressing being by ourselves - just like a normal weekend to me.

Tonite we are going out for dinner since we have no other invitations and then out to a movie. Back here after I guess for another movie at home and probably early to bed. DS18, who has been doing so well at his job the past 3 months after that 7 month struggle with him, decided that he didnt want to go into work today. He lied to his boss saying his car wasnt working and now the boss is very angry with him. Actually, he's been late the past week numerous times and missed another day calling in sick. I've warned him that he will probably get fired but he doesnt care - says he can get a better paying job somewhere else. He's supposed to work tomorrow, yes, Christmas Day, from 12 until 7. Upsets me that he wont be home. Dont know why the video store is even open but he gets double time.

Last year at this time I swore that we'd make more couple friends over the year, have more people over to socialize but nope, here we are again by ourselves. My brother and dad are coming over tomorrow for dinner but its just not the same - I miss the years with my mom and all the family together. I keep telling myself to be thankful for what we have but sometimes it just doesnt work. Sigh - sorry for rambling - I'm just kinda sad today.

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Registered: 12-27-2006
In reply to: tamarahar
Wed, 12-27-2006 - 10:21am
Thank you for that reminder. I pray that your son returns home safely!

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