Guilty mom Ramble
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|Thu, 11-10-2005 - 10:27pm|
I think that this Mommy is losing her mind. Seriously. I just want my kids to do ANYTHING without it being a struggle. I have gotten to the point where I have zero tolerance for anything. They are driving me nuts.
Today, I put in a movie for all of us to watch but the girls can't just sit and watch a movie they have to constantly be fidgeting. Sitting on their heads, pedling their legs in the air. Getting on the sofa...getting back down on the floor. So, we get through the movie and I think that we will try a tea party tonight (we have an old silver set and I serve cocoa in it for them) but instead of a nice time, they immediately start fighting over the cookies I've put out. I tell them to go get ready for their baths (basically take off their clothes and put them in the hamper). I realize that several minutes have gone by and they are not in the bathroom. I go into their room and they are in there with every toy out on the floor even though I told them to get it all picked up for the night.
I find myself getting more and more frustrated and then not wanting to spend time with them because they drive me crazy. Then I feel guilty because I don't want to spend time with them. It's a vicious cycle. I know that everyone is going to say that I need time for myself but because my husband works such weird hours (mostly afternoons and nights) he is hardly here to relieve me. What is wrong with me? I thought that your children were supposed to bring joy in your life? Mine bring dirty dishes and laundry and legos to step on in the dark. How do I get the joy back?