What are we thankful for this week?
At first I was fearful of the Zeph's birthmother-threatened, by a woman I would never meet who lives half a world away. Scared that I would have to compete with her for his love. Scared that I would never measure up the image he's created of her in his mind. Somewhere along these 12 years, the fear disappeared and has been replaced by an overwhelming gratitude.
I can not imagine the courage and selflishness it took to acknowledge that the baby growing inside of her would be better off with another. While impoverished and living in a village that still stigmatized the unmarried pregnant woman, she faced ostracitazion from her family. Abortion was an option, but I am thankful she chose life. She found an agency in a larger city for help, made sure she ate well so that our growing baby would be born healthy and strong. She made a plan for him to find his family in the United States. I marvel at her strength to let go of our beautiful healthy baby.
I am greatful of the foster family in Korea who took care of him unitl we could be matched. He was sung to, fed, rocked, brought out in to the world and loved. He came to me at 10 months, alert, meeting milestones, and thriving. They even sent pictures of his early months, so I would have those precious younger baby photos.
I am thankful for all the social workers, bureaucrats and pencil pushers both in Korea and in the United States who worked on his paperwork-there was a lot of paperwok- so he could come home to me.
I am thankful every day to be his mom.
I'm thankful to have the whole college search/application process over with.
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I am just thankful everyone is healthy. Valerie Harper was on some show that was on in teachers lounge, I was so moved by her grace and attitude. With everything going on around me, I am just trying to be more mindful of today and less focused on what I can't control in life. I am very thankful for my job, and have stopped stressing as to whether I will even have a job next year, and just thankful for my family.