"I wish I'd been aborted"
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|Sun, 12-07-2008 - 10:54pm|
What do you say to something like that? Especially curious on PLs POVs.
Because there are days when I HONESTLY feel this way.
Between suffering from multiple (at times debilitating) disabilities (most likes as a result of my moms alcohol abuse that she denies).Being abused in various forms and levels as a child and adult by my parents. Seriously.
Ok long story short...as short as it can get.
In my mother's 8th month of pregnancy she was told I would be born severly hydrocephalic, and to have an abortion. In her 8th MONTH. Some days I really really REALLLLLLLLLLLLY wish she had taken them up on that because she was a HORRIFIC parent and still is...Ok maybe she wasn't as bad as david Peltzer (or whatever his name is) mom...but seriously. Between the neurological disabilites and the severe emotional abuse I recieved from her snd my father (when he chose to be in my life)...and just...ugh. Seriously.
For anyone who doesn't know what Hydrocephalus is it's excess cerebralspinal fluid in the ventricles of the brain. Some of the more lovely and common side effects are excrutiating headaches,seizures, memory issues(including forgetting words). I feel like there is a GIANT canyon between me and EVERY OTHER person in the WORLD and it SUCKS!!!!
My parents always played the field...on the outside everyone says what a *wonderful* mother I have and how she "put up with so much"...and it's like...If only they knew....but my mom is such a GOD in this family that she would twist everything and make me look like an ass and a liar (like she did when her boyfriend raped me).
Ok...so maybe this was better served in rants...but ya know It has to be said...some preople really just are better off aborting( and nothing anyone says can change my mind about this).