Can I cry for a minute?
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|Thu, 03-27-2003 - 1:00pm|
I think I have mentioned before about my irregular periods. I have had fibroid tumors in the past, as well as ovarian cysts, though I am clear right now. However, my uterus is about twice its normal size. Could someone explain THAT to me? Well, after looking at my options , I have chosen the hysterectomy. This makes me soooo sad. Yes, I had my tubes tied 4 1/2 years ago when son was born. At the time, it was done with the plan of adopting and/or having foster kids. Now, though, we cannot do that due to my husbands health. But now it is going to be PERMANENT that I can never ever have another baby!!! Sure, there is the possibility that my husband will pass while I am still relatively young due to his health and the age difference. And I MIGHT meet someone after that who wants kids and we COULD adopt at that point. But the thought of never BEING ABLE TO have another baby is just breaking my heart!
And I'm sure my hormones aren't helping...I have been on THIS period for 9 weeks straight. I am anemic (again), bruised beyond belief, cranky, moody, sad, and heart broken! And DAMNIT, now is NOT the time for ivillage to change the board format on me!!! I'm ready to throw the puter out the window!!!
Sorry, just needed to get this off my chest. My husband hasn't been around in a few days. Don't ask me what he is doing. He leaves at 6:30 every morning, and doesn't come home until after the kids are in bed. I give up...I'm tired. I just wanna disappear to Hawaii for about a month!