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|Mon, 06-30-2003 - 5:00am|
Besides being new here, I was hoping for opinions on both sides of this debate as to what you think I should do about my situation. First off, I am currently a SAHM to my 16 month old son and am 5 weeks pregnant with my second child. I want to work but can not afford child care for my son and I know I would have to take maternity leave in a few months. I don't think I want to only take off a few weeks for this child, as I haven't worked for a little over a year, just to be home with my son. I want to at least give this child the benefit of having mommy home for at least the first year of his/her life.
The first plan for me, after having my son, was to wait a year and then enroll into a community college but since I am pregnant again, it doesn't look like that will happen for awhile, if at all. My hubby has his own business but has just gotten it off the ground and income isn't stable as of just yet. So money is still a bit tight and I know if I enrolled into college, it would be impossible to afford child care for both of my children. *sigh*
Can you tell that I am so up in the air about this? I know I will have to go back to work, eventually. But I have my heart set on furthering my education as a web designer. I don't want to be stuck at a dead end job for the rest of my life because we were too poor to afford child care. You may wonder how I am able to know this without trying. Well, I have tried. Several times, infact. I have called every daycare in my area and even went so far as to trust a complete stranger with my son, when he was only two months old. I was so desperate, I didn't even think about it. Needless to say, if I ever saw that babysitter again, I'd choke her for neglecting my son and just letting him sit in his carseat, while she watched tv all day! UGH, B*TCH! The cheapest daycare in my area wanted $250.00 per week for one child! WHAT?! That would be over half my paycheck, even if I made $10.00 per hour!! OMG!!!
I have little skills, other than basic office work and my work history really hurts my chances of getting hired. When I was younger and single, I never kept a job for more than a year, if that. I was very spoiled and was never made to 'earn my keep'. My mother always gave me what I wanted, so I never had to even have a job if I didn't want to work. So when I got out on my own and got with my DH, reality kind of slapped me in the face. At first, I was working as a photographer in a department store, but got booted after they found out that I wasn't selling as much as I agreed to. After a while of going from job to job, and after having my son, DH decided that it was time for me to just be mommy and stay home with our son. I was completely okay with this, since I hated my dead end jobs and I was sick of dealing with other people. Plus, I wanted to be there for every little milestone.
Well, my views have changed and I am ready to go back. DH has agreed but the ultimate problem is still childcare! WHAT DO I DO?????? OMG, this is driving me insane! I am so sorry this was so long and you probably know more about me than you want to but I felt I needed to tell you everything, for you to give opinions on it. Thanks for reading and I anticipate your responses.