No more daycare

So, my boss needs people to work on weekends. A lot. I talked it over with my husband, and we figured that if I worked the two ten hour days on the weekends while he is home with the baby, we can cut out daycare and it might be better financially. (I work three tens now, during the week). We also live really far and use a lot of gas.
So, I took it, took the baby out of daycare, and now I am regretting it, but can't change my mind.
Most moms want to avoid daycare, but I am crushed. I did not realize until now that they were a part of my family!!!! I had an extremely, extremely rough pregnancy and I met them when I was 7 months along. They have been great to all three of us from the get-go.
I want to say this. Most sahms will say, "I don't want a daycare raising my child", and we wohms will always refute that, but let me tell you, I didn't know how much I Wanted someone *sharing* raising her with me.
My husband and I don't have a support system, and they were it. The daycare was our support system. I did not even realize that until now. It was priceless to have someone to share our pride and joy with.
The good news is is that they aren't completely gone. The director didn't take my baby off of the books, she left her on and told me I can bring her any time at the drop in day rate. I can resume regular care again if needed, at the same rate. I had paid some money ahead, and they used it as a credit. She's already going back 3 more days this month, but it just feels so much like dh's and my "third person" is gone.
I cannot believe I feel this way after hearing so many moms talk about not wanting their kids in daycare. Ours was good for us.