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|Sun, 07-22-2007 - 11:24am|
Since the birth of our son 3 years ago I've been staying home FT. The transition for me from working 50+ hours a week to none was hard, but it was a decision that SO and I both agreed upon was the best choice at the time.
Up until about 8 months ago I was happy with the decision and enjoyed spending quality time with our son during the day and also our daughter who at that time was 6 months old. Slowly though I felt my patience running out being at home with our two children almost 24/7. SO is good about trying to give me breaks to get out of the house a few hours here and there and I was even able to take a short weekend trip away for the first time in 3 years not long ago. I was hoping this was something that would help me get out of my doldrums, but it hasn't seemed to work.
I enjoy being around my kids and feel fortunate that I'm in a position to do so... I know not all parents are able to so I feel a bit guilty complaining about the stress involved in being the primary-caregiver to two young children. I'm beginning to wonder though if it isn't time for me to think about going back to work and looking for some kind of daycare for our children. In this area, with two children daycare would not be cheap and add the cost of commuting and eating out for lunch and my pay wouldn't give us much more than the extra we would be spending. So it is hard justifying me going back to work on purely economic reasons. Not to mention the housework and grocery shopping I'm able to take care of while at home that gives our family a bit of free time at night and weekends.
My biggest fear is that I'll regret going back to work and will miss my children horribly. I guess that is something that everyone has to get used to eventually.
There's more I'd like to say on the subject but I'll leave it at that for now.
Thanks in advance for any advice.