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|Thu, 05-08-2003 - 2:23am|
I am accepeted to go to law school in three months. I have wanted to go now for years and put it off due to the fact that I am 36 and did not want to risk being motherless.
Well, my husband is not crazy about the idea at all. And I can understand because it is very exspensive. I would attend part time and it is 18,000 per year plus books.
I am a SAHM right now and my son will be 8.5 month by the time I would go. Yes, we are both freaked out about the loans of school, I mean really, am I crazy?
I said a couple of weeks ago, yea this is crazy...too much money ,I change my mind. However, the school needs an answer and a deposit by this Friday. EEK, I am kind of nervous, do I give it up after all I went through. This is my last deferment they have given me two. I am really nervous, will I regret this. If I go, it will cause severe financial strain on out marriage. My husband is NUTS over money.
What am I to do, end my marriage over this? I would really like to go but...
I really don't have any family support over this issue, so that makes it tough.
My husband said three years ago, well we have to have a family sometime, and I agreed so that is why I put this off. And he said ..you can go later. I know my husband, that will never happen..how could it when it is too much money, and I am not going to move to a closer, cheaper school. I will also have to secure a part time job too while I attend school.
Staying at home is good, but I do feel out of sorts quite often. I use to have so much motivation, drive, goals, now...what is wrong with me.
Well, I am so confused.
Should I just forget about it after I said I changed my mind? Or, just say, well this is me, I gotta do it? Why do I feel so guilty, wrong, upset, confused, scared? This issue has also caused a lot of stress between me and my husband - because he knows I wanted this. Now we fight about it.