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|Wed, 01-28-2004 - 8:09pm|
I have just been incredibly busy trying to adjust to everything. I had a meeting with Social Security last Firday about benefits and the money was double the amount I thought I would get and they had it in checking account Tuesday. It was very nice to not worry about money for awhile.
It has been a rough week emotionally. I watched Analyze That the other day and Billy Crystal kept saying Grief is a process. That remark has become my motto. I have been very teary and very fragile lately. I don't even know what will set me off. Zak has been an utter terror and I have threatened to send him to miltary school. He has made several hurtful remarks and been very disobedient. He has managed, since Saturday, to ruin my cable box by watering the plant on top of it when I told him not to, set off an elevator alarm at my health club, hit his brother, make sarcastic remarks and just be awful. I feel like I am in a National Geographic special. I am the mother lioness and he is the cub pushing my boundaries. I spent Friday morning crying on his school counselors shoulder. We are just readjusting and muddling along.
I am going to try to post more when things settle down. I know there were some discussions about people you can't question on the board and I hope people don't feel that way about me. I have put it all out here and I certainly love a good debate. I have so much emotion inside me right now that I might need a good debate. I am reading a book about the epidemic of spoiled children in America which has been caused by...working mothers, co-sleeping and lack of physical punishment. Imagine that. I immediately thought of the board.