OK, ladies it has been a week...
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|Sat, 01-03-2004 - 7:22pm|
I am doing allright. I had to switch words because I have used doing fine so much. I am alone for the first time in months. The kids are with my mother visiting their aunt and uncle. Everyone is really worried but I have enjoyed the peace and quiet. I am cross stitching tonight and watching Kate and Leopold, Anger Mangement and Law and Order SVU.
I am taking next week off of work to just be. I feel kinda of lost-I have been so busy taking care of everyone else that I missed myself. I went to the doctor this week and found out I have a sinus infection and an UTI. I didn't even know about the sinus infection. I plan to sleep late and read and try to settle some of the estate business.
I found out that I get to keep Devin's health insurance free for a year. That is a wonderful benefit I knew nothing about. I don't know how much his life insurance is but it will all work out in the end. Everything else has. I have to also call Social Security and get them to do the paperwork for the kids. Hopefullly, it will be enough to make the house payment.
I really feel at peace. I think it is freaking people out that I am so calm. I am just so glad he didn't suffer for a long time. Also, I feel like I have been through hell and I am on the other side of it. I am frightened of being alone and being a stressed out single mother. I am so unstressed right now though that I think it will be allright. I miss him but I couldn't bear to see him suffering.
The kids are doing allright too. I have to call and get bereavement counselling for them. I found a letter that Zak wrote to Santa asking that Daddy gets better. It broke my heart.