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|Fri, 10-17-2008 - 12:45pm|
i've been lurking for a while here, LOL. i have a c-section scheduled for next wednesday, the 22nd. at 39 weeks. i had a previous scheduled c-section in jan. 2005, due to a big baby (they estimated DS to be close to 12lbs, but he was 10lb 13oz) and polyhydramnios. so i've been through this before.
i was kind of hoping for a VBAC, but my doctor (very good i trust her) said she's not comfortable with doing a vbac if i have a big baby like DS, otherwise she would totally be for it. we'd make the final decision with an ultrasound at 37 weeks to see if he's head down, and how big he is. well that was oct. 7th, and his estimated weight was 10lb 4oz. i'm sure she knew that from fundal measurements anyways. i know they can be off by 10-15%, but he still had 2 weeks left to go! so he'll probably be about the same size as DS was.
i'm kind of nervous, i have panic attacks sometimes. i haven't had any this whole pregnancy, so that's good. i know they won't kill me or anything, but it sucks having them. anyway, i'm kind of worried that when they take me back without my DH, to give me my spinal and insert the catheter and lay me down, i'll have one. he calms me down so much, i know that's cheesy, but he's my rock. and then i might panic again after he leaves with the baby to the nursery, and they finish up and i'm in recovery for an hour. (talk about co-dependence huh?) i would much rather have him go with baby though. but still, i remember last time i was very uncomfortable in recovery, doped up, but when i tried to say something the nurse told me i needed to be quiet and get some rest. i'm sure i did, but i hated laying there by myself with that lady. DH promised to come check on me after he goes with the baby and they get him settled, i told him he didn't have to, but he says he will anyways. (kind of glad though i know just seeing him and hearing about baby will calm me down)
anyway, i'm not scared of the c-section itself. i'm confident this is the safest easiest way to get baby out, and my doctor is great, she's my sister's doctor too. i love her. everything went smooth with my last c-section, and at least this time i know what to expect. i'm so excited to see our baby boy, when DS was born he came out with a full head of red hair (total shock, i'm native american), we're anxious to see what little brother is going to look like! i guess i'm just scared about getting scared, does that make sense? haha. and everyone reassures me that they'll give me something after they pull the baby out if i'm feeling anxious, but i've heard that really makes you loopy and often you don't remember much. i don't want that to happen. but my doc says we'll play it by ear, if i think i need it, the anesthesiologist will have it ready. and if not, no big deal.
i'll make sure to post my c-section story when i get home, i know how much its helped me to read birth stories! if only i wrote down my experience from the first time.