Birth Story for Jack Ryan
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|Wed, 09-24-2003 - 9:56am|
Jack Ryan arrived on Sept 18th at 5:30 pm. It was not the birth I expected to have but I am very glad he is here!!
I had a regular midwife appt the morning of the 18th. The midwife took my blood pressure which she found to be 158 over 112. The midwives had been concerned about my blood pressure in the week before because it had been high, around 140 over 90. But this reading scared me. I had also been in labor off and on since the Saturday before. I was getting tired of timing contractions from 4 a.m. only to have them disappear after dinner. At the time of the appt, I had contractions that were coming 2 minutes apart and that were taking my breath away. And I was still only a fingertip dialated and 50% effaced. I was starting to lose hope that the baby would ever get here since I was already 41 weeks. All of these factors along with the "estimate" that the baby was over 9 pounds led me to consider a c-section when the midwife suggested it during the appt. I was very upset but also concerned about the baby's well being. I didn't know what to do. I decided, with my husband, that I just wanted to get this all over with and agreed to a c-section. The midwife made arrangements with the hospital and we set a time of 4:00pm that day. That gave us time to make child care arrangements for my daughters and alert my family and my doula.
We arrived at the hospital and I was prepped. I had still been having contractions so I had the midwife check me again before the surgery to be sure I hadn't dialated. No change, so we went on with the surgery. The surgery went well except for my blood pressure dropping (how ironic!) three times during surgery, making me feel very ill (at one point it was 80/30!). I had my husband and two midwives with me during the surgery which made a world of difference compared to my other two c-sections where I was alone. Jack Ryan was born at 5:30pm and weighed in at 9 pounds 5 ounces!! I couldn't believe that the midwife was right about his weight! He was so beautiful, with a head full of dark hair and small features. I couldn't wait to hold him.
Recovery has been difficult and is still on going but everyday gets better. Jack is a very good baby and I feel very blessed that he is here. His big sisters love him and my husband seems thrilled to be showing him the world. On the way home from the hospital, my husband played the song "With arms wide open" from Creed to welcome the baby. Of course, I cried all the way home I was so touched!!
A big thanks to everyone for being there for me thoughout my pregnancy and helping me deal with all the problems and issues that come with trying for a VBAC. Although I didn't get the birth I really dreamed of, I feel so glad to have tried and now I can say that the c-section was truly my choice. I am still mourning the loss of my VBAC and I have been crying a lot, but compared to all the things that happen in the world, this pain will subside with time and I can look forward to raising my wonderful children and all the joy the future will bring.