ACK, mom's worst nightmare!!!! (m)
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|Wed, 04-02-2003 - 1:01am|
SO and I were downstairs talking, dishwasher's going, TV's on....didn't hear any crying or anything to let us know DS was awake and I had just checked on him recently. Then....the most sickening *THUD*. At first I thought it was a neighbor (we rent a townhouse), but "mommy's intuition" sent me flying up the stairs. Before I got halfway up, DS was screaming bloody murder. I nearly threw up when I opened the door...and there's Jacob, lying face down on the carpet!!!! He'd somehow rolled/fallen off our bed - which is a good 3 feet high!!! I screamed for SO to come help (he's a former EMT and CNA, normally calm in all medical situations), and SO is completely hysterical. "OMG OMG What do I do?? What do I do??" he's screaming, and I calmly (amazingly) tell him to call 911. We have a phone in our bedroom, but he freaks and runs back downstairs to hunt down the cordless! As he's on the phone with 911, I stablized Jacob's head (for neck/head injuries) and put him on the bed, trying to calm him. No blood, no bruises, no protruding bones.
Make a long story short, EMS shows up and freaks out our entire complex (dang looky-loos), but say that Jacob appears to be just fine. They assure me it's happened to their own kids before...."it takes only once". Jacob is smiling and playing peekaboo with the firemen, perfectly fine! Then, the friggin cops show up to do a report. Apparently, because of the shaken baby syndrome, any injury to a child as to be investigated. He takes all our info, gives us a case number, and says DS doesn't look like normal shaken babies so we should be okay. He assures us, too, that one of his kids fell off the bed..."it takes only once".
We pack up and head to the hospital (in our own vehicle, we decided against the ambulance). We're there for about 1.5 hrs before we get in to see the doctor, who had his own child fall off the bed as well..."it takes only once". They've all said this to us!! He checks Jacob out, he's perfectly okay (no xrays were taken). THEN we get the hospital social worker to come and tell us about infant safety, basically shake her finger at us and tell us "no no". She says she's not going to report our case to CPS, thank god. We were there a little over 2 hrs (not bad for a kid's ER), and I feel like the absolute worst mother in the world. I feel a little better knowing I'm not the only one, but added to yesterday's realization that for 6mos I've been putting the car seat in the wrong place (ackkk!), I'm feeling really unsure about being a mom!! As we were waiting for the EMS, I kept having flashes of Jacob living in a wheelchair for the rest of his life!!! Ughhh!! *sigh* Thank god he is okay, thank god he wasn't seriously injured. No more naps in mommy and daddy's bed!!!!