Can't believe how sad I am...
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| Wed, 11-29-2006 - 11:36pm |
Hi Everyone,
I don't normally post here. Well, I don't normally post anywhere, lol! I just wasn't sure where to post this. Maybe someone can offer some words of support or something. Thanks.
I co-slept with my 3 year old daughter until she was two years old, at which time I weaned her (yes, she nursed that long!) and then moved her to her own room. My second daughter was born a couple of months later. A couple of months after that first dd started having nightmares and ended up sleeping with Daddy. She wasn't too crazy about that either - she wanted Mommy - but she prefered Daddy to sleeping alone.
Now, second dd is 11 months old and up until this week we were still co-sleeping. Then my husband got a second job working the night shift. He starts next week so I had to get my 11 month old sleeping on her own in her crib so I could go back to sleeping with the 3 year old. She's absolutely terrified of sleeping alone and goes crazy when we try to get her to sleep in her room. So earlier this week I put the new babe in her crib and she cried a little but, little trooper that she is, she adjusted beautifully. She's such a joy and I'm enjoying her babyhood immensely.
But the thing is, I miss sleeping with her so badly! She's my last baby and I so enjoyed sleeping with her. I can't believe how sad I am! I'm sitting here now watching her sleep on the video monitor and I want to cry. I know I'll adjust in a few days. But I miss the way she rolls over, wakes up a little and looks at me, sees me there and goes right back off to sleep. The feeling of knowing she's safe. The feel of her little hand on my arm while she sleeps. I just want to cry. What is wrong with me??? I'm with her all day long. Why am I so sad?? But I felt the same way when I had to send my first daughter off to sleep on her own too. Am I having separation anxienty?
Maybe I just needed to get this all out. My husband would think I was crazy.

This is the right place for that post.... I would suggest you give your daughter "monster spray" (water and vinegar or something like that that is non staining).
I want to give you a big hug!
Well, gosh! Your post makes me want to cry and I never even coslept! Big (((((HUGS))))) to you. I'm sorry you are so sad and hope you feel better soon. You'll always have the memories and that little extra bond you created with your girls. Sorry I can't help more.
Erin
Big hugs to you!
I can absolutely relate! My daughter is 15 months old and still nursing strong. She has been sleeping with me since she was 3 months old, and she usually nurses all night long. I love sleeping with her, but I know it will be time to wean soon and I know Im going to be devastated when I wean and she starts sleeping on her own, sigh!
I hth, I just wanted to you know that you are not alone!
Big hugs,
Monica
((((((((HUGS)))))))) To you!!!
Good, luck and i do understand your situation, i got a huge bed for us all and attached the crib for my three year old, next to the huge King bed.
Dr. Sears, wrote in some of his books how one of his rooms was wall to wall mattresses he had 8 kids i think and co-slept.
arie