I cried a little, LOL!

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I cried a little, LOL!
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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:15pm

But I was really pretty good dropping the girls off today, and very upbeat for them! Tessa, on the other hand, had a fit as I feared she would. When we pulled into the parkinglot, she began saying how she didn't like it here. Then she asked if Daddy was there, and were we going to eat lunch with him. I said No, this was school, and it was a special fun place for her and Jenna. Jenna was just very quiet.

I took them in and signed them in, and talked to the teachers, whom I knew from Justin going there. One of them is such a sweetheart, and remembers my girls from when they were babies, and just loves identical twins, so she was so excited they were there, and took them under her wing and tried to make them feel at home. She showed them all the cool toys while I watched. Jenna was somewhat interested in the toys, but kept checking over her shoulder to make sure I was still there.

When I started to leave, after probably staying longer than I should have, Tessa, who hadn't left my side, began to cry. I took her to Jenna and kissed them both, and told them I'd be back for them in just a little while, and that they were such big girls and I was so proud of them. Tessa said she didn't want to be a big girl, LOL! Jenna looked kind of sad, too, but she didn't cry. The teacher was right with them. Tessa tried to run after me crying. It was so hard for me, but I was brave and walked out after blowing her kisses and telling her she was fine. When I looked in the window, it was sooo cute, because she was still crying, but Jenna was hugging her!!

I got in my car and fought back the tears, and felt so guilty and questioned myself: Are they too young? Am I doing the right thing? Is this abusive? Etc. I mean, I'm not working, why am I giving them to someone else to care for, KWIM? But I have to believe it's for their own good.

I cried a little on the way home. And I called from my cell phone, and the teacher said Tessa was still crying (but that she would be fine), making me feel worse.

And Michael got me upset too, because he didn't call me to see how they were doing. I called him from home, and he spoke to me for only a few seconds, and said he was hung up in a trauma, and he'd call me back. I know he can't help that, but it did make me upset. I felt kind of alone, KWIM? When he finally did call back, I was at Starbuck's with my sister having coffee, and trying to restrain myself from calling the preschool every 5 minutes to see how Tessa was doing, LOL! He said we should give it a month, and if she doesn't adjust by then, maybe pull her out until next Fall, but leave Jenna in. . . I just don't know. . .

When I picked them up, Tessa was not crying anymore, but sitting right by Jenna kind of sob-breathing and all tear-stained still. Jenna was coloring the letter J with pictures of J things around it, and seemed to be OK, but very happy to see me.

On the way home, Tessa said she didn't like school, was not a big girl, and didn't like her teacher. Jenna said she liked the barn toy, and when I asked her if her teacher was nice, she said Yes, but when I asked her if she wanted to go back to school, she said No. Probably shouldn't have asked that!!

I don't think they socialized AT ALL with any of the other kids, just stuck by each other. They go back again Tuesday.

I admit it was hard, and I'm feeling kind of guilty, like maybe they're still too young. They just turned 3 in September. And I'm still worried about Tessa's adjustment.

So there you have it. Their first day of preschool. Thanks for all your encouragement! :)

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:23pm
Oh Sofia, that must have been SO hard for you to leave!!
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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:29pm
awww, that sounds so sad Sofia. It will break my heart to have to drop Belle off this fall. I am not looking forward to it. She'll come around though, be strong!
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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:30pm

It sounds like it went okay. I wonder if it will get better when they start to socialize with the other kid. Then they will have something to look forward to. I also wonder if it's different with twins, because they already have someone there that the know. I have visions of Alyssa running in and not looking back thinking "don't let the door hit you mom". I don't know which would be harder, my kid not really caring that I left them, or her not going inside without throwing a fit.

Either way, you did a good job getting out and keeping busy and not calling every 5 minutes. Hopefully it will just get easier from here. Maybe Justin can tell them about how much fun he had and that will help.

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:46pm

Poor Sofia... I'm so sorry you had a rough day!

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:56pm

I was thinking of you today as I was getting Cole ready for school!

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 4:17pm

Sofia,


I'm glad you and the girls made it through the first day. I hope Tuesday goes more smoothly. *hugs* You did great. Your girls and Natalie are very close in age, Natalie turned 3 in November. Natalie has always been a social butterfly. I'm sure I'll have more trouble with Christine, I already have trouble with her not wanting me to leave her in the church nursery. We haven't started Natalie in preschool yet, but she LOVES church classes.




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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 10:18am

I so would've cried, too, lol. I don't know what I would've done if mine had cried at thier first day of school like that. I'm sure it will get better with each passing day, though, Sofia, and your girls obviously can use the social interaction. I don't think you're doing the wrong thing at all, sending them or not are equally good decisions, imo.

((((HUGS))))
Erin

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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 12:03pm
I'm glad all of you made it through the first day of school!! Hopefully, the girls will enjoy it more the next time they go. If not, just think about what's best for them and make a decision whether or not to keep them in.

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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 4:16pm
mine turned three today. She is not ready for pre-school yet, cause she doesn't like to be without me. I can understand that. Although, i am thinking of putting her in next sept. she will be 3 and 8 mos. then. I feel she will be more ready, but, yet it is touch and go with my super, independant and knows what she wants child. If she doesn't want to stay i will not keep her in it. Here they let you stay with them for a few days, the entire day, maybe you could do that till she gets to know her teacher better? I could never leave anastacia, to cry she would never forgive me LOL. I was lucky i knew my pre-school teacher and went to school with her, when i was 3 and /2 and loved it. She just let me kind of play on my own with the toys and such, because i was not real social at those ages either. My daughter plays at her play group, but only comes in like after most people hve left and plays with only 2 girls who talk, she says.
Girls and kids they are so cute!!!
good luck tuesday
arie
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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 4:48pm
(((((((Sofia)))))))
I have to admit that you handled it better than I would have... but then again my kids are with me 24-7. Someday I'm going to have to cut the rope too and it's REALLY going to be painful, but necessary.
I think it's good you are putting them in school... especially being twins... they need to learn how to interact with other kids. Hang in there... they'll get used to it eventually :o)

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