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| Tue, 12-05-2006 - 3:52pm |
Did anyone catch Opera a few weeks ago where a high school's students and faculty met in the gym to get know each other?
| Tue, 12-05-2006 - 3:52pm |
Did anyone catch Opera a few weeks ago where a high school's students and faculty met in the gym to get know each other?
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Andrea...this is great.
(Andrea, you are NOT
Wow, this is touching!! Are you trying to make me cry when I don't even have PMS?? LOL!
OK, here goes:
If you really knew me, you would know that I have an insecurity inside me that makes me worry that disaster will strike, and I'll lose what I care about most. I sometimes worry about irrational things like my kids getting hurt, or my husband getting killed in an accident. I'm nervous when the boys ride their bikes, and am scared they'll be hit by a car or kidnapped. I worry that something will happen to my girls when they go to preschool in January and are out of my sight. I worry everytime Michael drives home from an overnight shift after not sleeping all night that he'll fall asleep at the wheel and crash, and am so relieved when he walks in the door. This comes from the fact that my mom tried to take away what meant most to me in my whole life, and destroy my happiness. I am learning to forgive my mom, and feel the love I have for her, and my worries are getting much better. I almost lost my girls when I was pregnant, and that taught me to trust God, but it is a lesson I'm still learning.
Sofia
Sofia,
That is incredibly touching.
Wow.. good post. I didn't see Opera though, my antenna doesn't pull in CBS, so I miss a lot!
If you really knew me you'd know that I'm extremely insecure. I have a horrible time believing anyone cares about me (stems from abuse as a child and a jerk of a first husband). Makes for some interesting days in my house. *sigh*
If you really knew me you would know that Im very caring and compassionate. I cannot hurt a soul even if I tried. I can't be mean to someone, no matter what they have done or said to me or it makes me feel worse about myself. (does that make sense,lol). I can also be pretty sensitive and over analyze things--sometimes, although I'm doing better. I like to look at myself in the mirror at the end of the day and be proud of my actions. ALso, I ALWAYS try to view things from other people's point of views and I put myself in their shoes when considering a situation. I am too understanding, sometimes it's bad.
here's an example: The day of Vin's baptism my husband got a flat tire pulling out of the church.(God works in mysterious ways). Anyway, I couldnt leave him there by himself. He kept telling me to go, and I just wouldnt leave him to fix his tire by himself. I waited until he was done, gave him a baby wipe for his hands and left. I know, Im pathetic, but if something were to happen to him, it was a bad neighborhood, I wouldnt have been able to live with myself.
If you really knew me, you would know that I am very insecure. You would know that I stay at home all the time. I don't make friends b/c I fear what to say. I stay away from any situation I do not know...even the drive through to get coffee. You would know that I have a huge heart and would do anything to help out anyone. You would know that I have searched and looked for that one true friend...but they are not real. You would also know that I truly hate myself for who I am. I fear that I am hurting my children b/c of my issues. You would know that I put off everything b/c I do not know what to say...even phone calls to doctors. You would know that I long for the day I can go somewhere and not worry about what everyone is thinking of me. I feel so stupid about what I do, so I don't do anything. You would know that I'm a very sad and lonely person.
Ok, that was tough. Thanks Andrea! And I did see that show, very amazing!
What a great idea!!
Christy
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