Insanity

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Insanity
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Sun, 08-19-2012 - 5:28pm

Ladies,

We are all aware of the definition of insanity and yet we continue to put ourselves through it. I personally am done. My plan is simple, in 90 days, I'm moving back home, getting a regular job, living for one year with my parent, saving my money and officially moving on to a new career.

I cant keep going on like this, its awful. The blatant disrespect and lack of real progress in this profession, I just cant take anymore. I've said it years ago and then I thought I found a happy place to be only to get what, laid off??

Going back to yet another job tomorrow who doesnt value me or my talent and I'm wondering why I'm sitting here iwth tears in my eyes.

I have to give this up now, so I can save my life cause I cant go on like this. Begging for jobs that dont pay well only to watch someone with less talent and common sense get it??

Having someone think its ok to pay me half the salary of someone who has EXACTLY THE SAME CREDENTIALS as I do?

This is all insanity. I've gotten all the good out of it I can get, its time to save my life cause TEACHING has taken enough from me.

Thanks for listening ladies. I do love you and I'll post from time to time but this has to stop. There has to be something better.

Ruth

 

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In reply to: sallen06
Sat, 08-25-2012 - 6:42pm
GT: Sending you an e-mail. We gotta talk!
Sherry
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In reply to: trouchflute
Fri, 08-24-2012 - 3:55pm

Ruth, Pam has a point.  If my husband was willing to go with me overseas, I bet I could find a job tomorrow.

Express!

Beth "Petrouchka"

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Fri, 08-24-2012 - 6:20am

If I could have half your teaching (and writing!) talent, I would consider myself lucky.  What about the teaching overseas idea?

 

Pam

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Thu, 08-23-2012 - 9:50pm

Ladies,

I weigh a billion pounds, fight boughts of depression and cant stand the thought of having kids (no disrespect to moms) I have no money and have never been able to afford much of anything.

Just when I thought  was at least making a decent salary and being somewhat happy, BOOM!! It all was swiped out from under me and 3 years later, I cant get myself back on track.

Can you imagine how EMBARRASSING it is to stand in front of a group of parents and tell them my credentials and they ask, so why are you a teacher's AIDE??

All I can say is I dont know. Yesterday for example, it was "meet the parents night" every stands in a line and tells the parents al about themselves. All I said was my name and what I did, why, CAUSE I FELT LIKE A DAMN FOOL SAYING OH I HAVE A BS AND A MA IN EDUCATION BUT COULD ONLY FIND A JOB AS AN AIDE??

It's just too much. All I've done is struggle, with a few small triumphs in between. But mostly struggle. My clothes are raggedy, my dog got sick and I  could barely afford to help her, I have to once again sell what I have just get by. Oh and I'm living with a friend just to make some money and get out of debt.

I feel stupid. What has this all been for? To constantly move from school to school and be told what's wrong with me. How long do I do this before I just realize, its no longer for me??

How much worse does this need to be?? And then ok,  I understand that I need to improve my skill set, but can't find a job that pays well enough for me to afford to pay for a class.

Its all exhausting and I just feel like I'm drowning. Its time to stop talking about moving on and just do it. It may take some time but this is all just INSANE.

I maybe a greatteacher, but teaching is not great for me.

Just gotta face facts. I dont belong in this profession anymore. I loved it, but it has never loved me. I have to reclaim my life and very soon.

Love you ladies,

Ruth

 

 

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Tue, 08-21-2012 - 7:45pm
So sorry to see how upset you are but, I totally know how you feel. I'm about to face the start of another school year without a job. I worked only 5 months as a long term sub over the past 2 school years. It's very disheartening.
Have you looked into online teaching? I don't know what the market is like there but, maybe it's better. I know online colleges are exploding.
If you really do decide to leave teaching, I hope you're happy in whatever you wind up doing. Good luck!
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Sun, 08-19-2012 - 11:48pm

Hey GT. If you change your mind our district is always looking for teachers that bring diversity of race and culture to the classrooms.  They prefer less experience as I have mentioned, but they will hire in the 10-15 experience range if you bring something they really want and need. We have three TAP schools with grants that look for master teachers and salary scale is second to creativity, experience and the ability to model and teach best practices.  We also have a very sound K-6 charter that has been hiring a few teachers each year because they have low turnover. They have a very diverse staff.

I know you are upset and disillusioned, but I've told you before that you are fishing in too large of a lake. There's too much competition and too many issues in DC and Detroit. The smaller communities offer a more consistent, positive environment and a clearer focus than the large cities.  Our problems pale in comparison to what you've been fighting.

No matter what you do, stay in touch. I've missed hearing from you lately.

Best wishes,

Sherry

Sherry
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Sun, 08-19-2012 - 9:05pm
Thanks Beth. My email is smileysgirlforever@yahoo.com
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Sun, 08-19-2012 - 5:36pm

You know, sometimes I think every college education building should have a sign on the door that reads, "Abandon all hope ye who enter here."  I haven't abandoned hope yet, but someday I just may get around to it.

Express!

Beth "Petrouchka"

P.S. Ruth, I wish you all the luck in the world in greener pastures.  If you are interested, the ESL company out of Korea I work for also hires people in the U.S., and perhaps I could put you in contact with them.