SO - how am I supposed to feel.??
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|Sun, 08-07-2005 - 2:12am|
...when most of my Title Ones can't pass my weekly test for the 2nd week in a row???! I haven't graded my 7th graders tests yet & they did seem more comfortable w/their concepts, but I'll save that for tomorrow. I just had to take a break for one day & get some of the other stuff off my plate.
OK - here's where I'm gonna unload -- I've been on overload since I signed my contract in June it seems and I'm exhausted as we head into week 3 of school & fighting off that "niggling edge" of catching a sinus-cold-throat-thing (teacher-throat from the varying degrees of A/C to nauseatingly stuffy my room goes thru). My house is a walking bacteria farm which none of my guys seems to notice... I finally have an appt w/an unknown housecleaner for Tuesday nite to see if that will work & I again placed an order for my office furniture so I can consolidate my working areas & have one place to spread out & work in my office since I got it painted & laid the new carpet in May. My original plans got messed up (can you say Office Max is not my hero this year!!!). Now I'm dealing w/Staples, hopefully this will go as planned! The laundry is pretty much caught up for today, tho my washer is on its last leg & not working quite up to par which didn't add to the mix trying to fight w/it before heading off to school at 6:30 in the morning - just don't have time to deal right now! My oldest D sent me flowers at school (course she's a teacher, she knows how this works!!). My Mom called nite before last to wish me a happy birthday & let me know I'd be getting a call to pick up some flowers in town as she was getting info that they wouldn't deliver in our area - I was grading papers as usual!! Got home Friday & had a call that a different florist had delivered them to the neighbor as he didn't want leave them outside in our heat (a regular 110 most days + monsoon humidity). Of course to top it off the neighbor left for the weekend well before I got home from school so I may get them when they've outlived their usefulness tomorrow nite or Monday nite when I get home. My guys at home took me out to dinner last nite & I came home & promptly crashed -then woke up about 1am unable to go back to sleep as I couldn't slow down my brain from all the stuff I "should be getting done & if I can't sleep I should just get up & do it". But am wise enuf to know I need to get my sleep at nite while it's dark & quiet & I have the time. Finally about 2:30 took a sleeping pill as just happened to have a bottle we picked up for S15 for the 10 hour flight home from Alaska after visiting SD & SIL end of May before I set sail w/this new adventure... S15 starts his Jr year of HS Monday AM & I couldn't go w/him to registration last week because I was tied up w/my class + now have to figure out a way to get him to school when I've really gotten used to using that extra hour in the morning for class prep; S18 leaves for his jr year at ASU in about 8 days & I feel like I've spent all of about an hour with him since he's been home from Europe early July; & D29 is more than 1/2way thru her pregnancy w/my G'baby #2 & I'm swamped w/school stuff & don't have time to be part of it. I'm still working on how I can wangle a few days at the beginning of December to be there when the baby's due & we'll be about 2 weeks shy of the end of 2nd quarter.
Anyhoo - should I feel good that my class is getting about 1/3 to 1/2 of what I'm giving them & a couple are actually passing the math part of the class w/a D - at least w/the 8th graders - this is preAlgebra, quite an abstract concept for 12 & 13 yos??! So far I've added in all the requisite classroom points - daily points for participating & classwork & so far for just bringing their "Journals" (the spiral notebooks for warm ups, key concept notes, & vocab words & definitions). Did a quick glance over w/most of them last week to see if they seemed to be on-track w/what I'd asked of them & check them off daily just for having them while seeing that homework is already done before we start the review of that lesson & work. I start collecting the notebooks to take a close look at them & try to jot a note to each of them this next week. But w/those added in, the grades look to be pretty fairly spread - just not representative of the "Math" they're actually doing. Gave them last weeks test after all failed that. I already set it up to offer test redo's w/strings (showing all work, writing me an explanation of what they did wrong the 1st time & how they corrected it) normally for half credit - but gave them full for the 1st test & walked them thru what I wanted to see). A very few actually took the time to do most of what I asked for to get that credit so this weeks gradebook actually had one w/an A-, a couple per class w/B's, C's, & D's, and 3-4 per class w/F's - mostly because they aren't turning in work & can't seem to get around to bringing in the spiral as well as not doing well w/the math. I'm spending all of my waking time trying to do right by them & feel like I'm missing something if this is where they're at - but we are forced to move thru this material so blasted fast as they are only Title & still held to our same district standards testing each quarter (and we are definitely held to teaching to those standards)...
Well so much for this post - I'm going to now head off to bed so I can put in a full day tomorrow & do what I didn't get done today to be prepped for this weeks classes. I really do know that this is all part of the 1st year process, but man alive I can't even bear to look at my paystub when it comes thru when I realize how little time my family gets w/me. I can't imagine how people who actually have to do this "for the paycheck" make it. I have never been paid this little for this much work. Lucky for me that part is more of an afterthought as we live comfortably these days w/DH's salary.