Teacher Depression; Is it real or.......

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Teacher Depression; Is it real or.......
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Fri, 08-04-2006 - 11:05am

Is it just me??? Maybe I am pre-disposed to it and didn't know it but I can't recall having these feelings before I became a teacher......

Just feeling like you are doing a job that noone appreciates and that you have to face a new set of kids with a new set of problems every year, it's starting to wear on me....

Maybe it's just me and my situation but I am tired of these feelings of dread ya know!!

I guess I am just not ready to go back yet. The word on the street is that we are being forced to go back to a training that we had last year. I am like, please no more. I promise it won't be different and I just can't promise I will be there the whole time.......

Totally gonna make up an excuse to leave a day early. They are not gonna spoil what little vacation I have left.......

Maybe it is just me!!!

GT35

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Sat, 08-05-2006 - 11:45am

I'm excited about this upcoming year but on the matter of training would echo your thoughts about the timing. I need every single day of summer vacation to be mine! My end-of-the-summer trainings are universally depressing. I wish they would just give us time to set up our rooms. Instead, at our school, they use this time for their own agenda, giving us resources we have no time to prepare for (like new computer programs), flooding us with IEPs to write, and giving us curriculum "ideas" that send the mixed message of "suggestion" as requirement.

Pam

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Sat, 08-05-2006 - 5:32pm

Ummmmmmm, Pam do you work at my school?? You just described my life. So I guess it's not just me....

GT35

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Sat, 08-05-2006 - 6:21pm

I was thinking about this the other day. I know a lot of teachers with depression, including myself.


I just got through the pre-planning. It wasn't that bad this year. Sure we had a whole day of meetings. BUt, one of our students was killed the week before so we're pretty consumed with that. It was a drive by, for her house. It's all over the news. She was burried today.


I hate listening to adults argue over little things. Do we really have to talk for so long on how to do the perfect CHAMPs chart for walking in the hallway? Nope. Let's go home! I like knowing what is going on with other grades and what the whole school should be doing. It gets to be overkill at times, though. The IEP drives my instruction and my behavior interventions. Yes, to standards and no to over generalizations. This stuff happens all year though with our bi-weekly "training." The new super wants more of this! I have to see if it's in our new contract that just came out yesterday afternoon.



crazy

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Tue, 08-08-2006 - 5:51pm

Hey, GT! Not to depress you, but I'm on vacation looking at the ocean and feeling the breeze. I just got time to check in with all of you.


I know what you're feeling. I went through it several times over 25 years in the classroom. You've heard me talk about my class from h--- and what I went through with them and their "wonderful" parents. When I was done with that class I didn't care if I ever went back. Of course I had no choice. I had a daughter in college and one ready to start. The money overruled my depression. That year I didn't care what my room looked like or how welcoming I was to the new group. I finally decided that I'd do my best while I was there, but I didn't owe them my whole life. I really started cutting back on the extras.


I also started to notice that I didn't get as excited in the summers as I had before. I used to always think about the upcoming year and get excited about my new ideas and plans, but I too learned that no matter what I did, the perfect lesson or the perfect class wasn't going to be the result. I just did what I knew was right and used best practices. If I had a clear conscience, that's all I could ask for. If they were horrible, if their parents were ridiculous, or if they didn't learn all they should, I still knew I'd tried my best. That was

Sherry

 

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Wed, 08-09-2006 - 9:45am

That perfection streak is sooooooo right on!! Yes, I want things to go well, but it's my administrators. They treat people like trash. I am so sick of it. My pay doesn't compensate for it in ANY WAY...

You are right though, I look at my bank account and nothing I can do but go back. I have had resumes out there for 8 months. I send two out a month. NOTHING....

I just want to work for someone who is not always threatening to fire people. Every meeting we must be reminded that we can be replaced. By the by, she has to hire over 80 percent of a new staff again this year. That should tell her something but sadly it doesn't....

All, I am trying to stay focused on is buying a condo. I found one that is nice and in my price range. So, that is my goal. But I won't stop looking for greener pastures. Maybe I will never be satisfied at any job, but there has to come a point where I can at least find something tolerable..

You know, I am starting to think that happiness is just a myth. Thanks sherry, as usual your post sums up exactly what I am feeling.....

Now get back to that beach and get some sun for me. Enjoy yourself.

GT35 who is seriously considering starting my tutoring business, because I can't keep working for others and feeling this way.

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Tue, 08-15-2006 - 12:34am
I totally agree with you about the depression- esecially when you've worked your butt off only to tbe told that your school and test scores have hit "rock bottom" by the new principal who wants you to begin wearing name tags in order to foster "professional/accademic language". How is wearing a plastic tag with my last name(my students can no longer call me Ms.Meg-- which they have for years:() going to boost student test scores? i have a masters degree for this? I am really frustrated. In addition, as a school that is in its 5th year of not meeting AYP scores you would think that our staff has heard how these scores are determined and what the difference between state and national demands are. Yet we had to spend 3 and 1/2 hours being lectured to about this subject and no one said anything because who wants to be the troublesome employee on the first day? arrrgg! thanks for listening.
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Tue, 08-15-2006 - 8:40am

All I want is to work for someone who is a real educator. Someone who truly understands how to treat people and cares about the teachers, students and the test scores....

Oh yes, I was at a school like that last year and yes we were put down in every staff meeting. "Scores need to improve or there will be some staffing changes next year."....

Oh really, you have 70 percent student turn over from year to year and yet WE are the problem. You allow the students to have excessive absenteeism, but WE are the problem...

Now this school where I am, I have to get out of here. They are a new school, so MEAP scores aren't the top priority yet. But by next year if the scores are still low, I will again be back in the same place.......

I am tired of complaining. I am tired of feeling like this. This is why, I am more determined than ever to get my masters degree. I can get out of the elementary classroom and teach adults. Hey, they have the same problems, but I don't have to worry about test scores....

I am soooooo praying that another school calls me this week. I am sending out resumes like crazy. Maybe the next place will be just as bad, but it won't be the same place...

I will job hop until I either find the right place or I at least find a place I can tolerate....

Seriously, when I buy my home, I am going to start my support group. We need it. I know there has to be a place for it....

GT35