Wishing I could change my username cause I'M NOT A TEACHER!
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|Fri, 08-12-2011 - 3:23pm|
Its time to let it all go before I actually cause myself some real harm. 12 years and 6 schools to boot, I'm not a teacher anymore. What I am is an aide. I am substandard and not competitive enough to get a job in this new fangled world we live in.
I'm a 20th century person trying to make it in a 21st century world and no matter how much I learn or update myself, its not worth it. Of course there will be no complete happiness in another profession cause whereever I go, there I am, but I've been kicked around for years and finally now, KICKED OUT.
I've hit my limit and frankly dont know what to do anymore. Maybe I'll come back to it after I've gained some skills. Maybe I'll move to another state and be one there. But I need to move on. I have to finally let it go. Its going to be hard and very difficult, but the writing is on the wall. I've wanted out for years, been on this board for years and even when I finally found a place where I thought I belonged, I was removed. So, its time, time to do something different at least for a little while.
I need peace and I need it now. I have to have it. I may still tutor but teach in a classroom. Not in my immediate future. This is what a down economy can do to a person's spirit. The longer you're out of something, the more no one wants to let you back in.
Thanks ladies. I'm stil gonna work my AIDE job until I find my new direction. But once I get back to work, wont post as much so say what you want. I understand and yes I'm getting help cause I'm in a very bad place emotionally. Which is not good for me to be around kids at all but hey, I'm just an aide, I'M NOT THE TEACHER.