Gypsy's Back on the Wagon Journal

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Gypsy's Back on the Wagon Journal
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Wed, 05-26-2010 - 2:30pm
Finally got back to a WW meeting Monday. It had been nearly 2 full months -- and I managed to gain 10 lbs. :O UGH! The emotional binge eating for comfort in response to stress and worry over DH, plus that arrogance that I "can handle" eating the old favorites and not measure. :// BTDT and I know better. Still, when I feel "under attack," food is what I turn to again and again. That connection, a dysfunctional one at that, was learned in my childhood. It's embedded deep in my psyche at this point. It will never go away as my first response of choice. Not in this lifetime. That will never change. I have to finally face that fact. What I *can* change is how I *choose* to respond. Making it a conscious choice, rather than just an automatic unthinking kneejerk reaching for food. :o(



As of Monday I am again tracking and pointing out my food. Going back online @ WW and keeping my journal up to date. So far so good. Easier to stay on track if I write it all down, measure, see how many points are left for the day, after planning out the day's meals in the morning. That way when I want to snack or not measure, I can see the dangers and choose how I want to spend any points left for the day, for snacks or add-ons in a meal.



I had to temporarily cut back from my "maintenance" daily points in order to lose the extra pounds. Also, with not walking everyday as my hip continues to heal, and the reduced mileage, also requires less daily food, thus less points. :/ I don't need as much fuel, especially carbs, if I'm not burning them in the longer walks... As the mileage goes up, and I reach goal weight again, I will go back to my "maintenance" level of daily points.



I want to develop a new kneejerk response to stress or worry ~~ instead of reaching for food, do some t'ai chi chih moves instead. Or "walk it off" with my Mika dog. :)


Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



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can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Gypsy

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Wed, 05-26-2010 - 6:50pm
Sounds like a good plan, and you also know and accept your limitations with regards to the food and the exercise.
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Wed, 05-26-2010 - 7:29pm

HA! It all sounds good in "theory" and in words, but the *reality* can be a shocker, ROFLMBO! :P

Today for lunch, for example, I had 1 c. FF cottage cheese w/ 3 oz. sm can tuna in water. With that I had ½ c. FF milk, a large raw carrot ... and 7 MEASLY baked reduced fat Triscuits. I say measly because that single serving little pile of 7 crackers looked sooooo small, lol! Lately I would have eaten *at least* 3x that amount, with my tuna & cottage cheese! Would have just munched right out of the box! <:O But, I told myself to "have faith" that I would be satisfied and it would be enough food for lunch. LOL! And, by the time I finished, eating slowly and chewing thoroughly, it *WAS.* ;))

Breakfast was scrambled egg beaters w/ a slice of FF cheese & ketchup on top. 1 slice MIlton's whole grain bread toasted & dry. 1 med. orange and 1 c. FF milk. 2 c. coffee.

Tonight will be Gorton's lemon pepper fish, ½ c. rice and 1 c. broccoli. 1 c. FF milk. Maybe a WW Giant Fudge Bar later for dessert. :P

Mika & I walked 72 minutes today. My hip & bunion are not complaining thanks to the new Keen wallking shoes. WOOT! ;)



Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



Photobucket





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Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Thu, 05-27-2010 - 6:51am
Great job on the food and on the exercise!!
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Thu, 05-27-2010 - 10:47am

Yay for putting on the brakes and re-setting the brain and daily habits! I'm right here with you in going to food for comfort and stress relief; I also learned that very early on in life and will likely always have that struggle.


Well, thank goodness you caught it early, 10lbs. will be off before you know it with good WW habits and your increased exercise. Have you thought about breaking your walks up, say a 40 minute a.m. walk and a 40 min. p.m. walk? I'm sure you have but I was thinking you would still get the

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Thu, 05-27-2010 - 5:39pm

Thank your for the welcome back and encouragement! :)) It's good to be back! I've missed everyone and all the positive energy and encouragement. <:P It's sure no good being isolated and going it all alone. <:\

I've thought of breaking Mika's and my walks into two shorter, but there is a "window" of opportunity for walking when the streets are quiet, less foot traffic, etc. So, mid morning is about the best time for us. So right now I alternate days. Up to 60-70 min. so far. Will stay at this for awhile, then maybe add 20-30 min on alternating days. :P



Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



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Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Thu, 05-27-2010 - 6:13pm

Stayed pretty well on plan yesterday. Had Jello SF chocolate pudding w/ WW mint chocolate crisp for dessert, instead. <:P

Today Breakfast was 1 c. FF milk, 2 c. coffee (black, no sugar), Kashi Almond Flax granola bar & WW Sweet & Salty bar. 1 med. banana.

Lunch was 1 c. FF plain yogurt w/ 1/4 c. unsalted almonds, 1/3 c. dried cranberries and cinnamon sprinkled in. Water to drink.

Tonight is DH's fav: TACOS! LOL! <:D I will have ½ c. mixture of 93% fat free ground beef mixed with chopped onion & FF refried beans & spices (DH's recipe), 2 low carb whole wheat tortillas, ¼ c. shredded reduced fat cheese, 1 c. chopped lettuce, ½ c. chopped tomatoes, 2 T. FF sour cream. 1 c. FF milk.

Maybe a WW Giant Fudge Bar for dessert. :)

Using a few of the weekly 35 pts., along w/ my daily points. I find I lose better if I *do* use the "35s," but not all of them. :P (Those reset on Mondays, my meeting day, except this Monday's a holiday).

No walk today. Had chiropractic today, and it is the alternate day off. Mika & I will walk tomorrow. :) I am doing my stretches & 20 min. T'ai Chi Chih, though. :)



Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



Photobucket





Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photobucket



Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Fri, 05-28-2010 - 10:00am
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Fri, 05-28-2010 - 2:45pm
Well, changed dessert, but stuck to the rest of yesterday's plan. Had WW mint chocolate chip ice cream + 2 Snackwell's devil's food cookies. :P



Today's breakfast was broken up as I had fasting blood work first thing. Had a Kashi Almond Flax bar right after the test, before driving home. I was too ravenous to wait another 25 minutes to get home, LOL! :P When I got home I had my other granola bar, the Nature Valley Oats & Honey, along with 1 c. FF milk, 2 c. black no sugar coffee and a medium banana.



Lunch will be a turkey sandwich, using multi grain sandwich thins, 6 slices thin deli turkey, Dijon mustard, 1 c. FF milk, 1 sm. apple and 1 serving of Ruffles baked chips (that's *TEN chips,* count 'em, LOL! :P



Dinner we're having burgers. I'll have a Boca Vegan burger on sandwich thins, 1 slc. FF Kraft Singles Sharp Cheddar, lettuce, 1 tsp. Dijon mustard, 1 tsp. ketchup, 1 T. low fat mayo, 3 dill pickle slices. 1 c. FF milk. 1/2 c. Bush's baked beans.



Don't know about dessert. I only have 8 of the weekly 35s left, and want to spread 'em out over the next several days. Both Sat. & Sun. DH will be off doing his thing at the railroad with special projects and a train public run day on Sunday, so I can regulate pretty well my meals on my own. Monday he'll be home, though, and we'll BBQ a chicken. I think I want to make my first potato salad of the "season," in which I use both lowfat and regular mayo (for DH's sake, LOL!) and have a recipe pointed out with WW already. :P And a tossed green salad with FF dressing, for the holiday meal. We'll likely hang out as we have the DVD from Netflix for "Avatar" we want to watch. Will have to plan any special holiday snacks...and I wanna have a Bud Light Lime, too! ;) The good news, though, is Monday is the start of a new WW week, and while there's no meeting, I do start over with my weekly 35s!!! YIPPEE! :P



Well, "Miss Mika" is nagging me with her nose poking my leg. It's WALK DAY and we better get movin'! ;))



Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



Photobucket



Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



Photobucket





Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photobucket



Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Edited 5/28/2010 2:47 pm ET by gypsywolfwoman


Blessings,

Gypsy

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Fri, 05-28-2010 - 5:49pm
Well, changed dessert, but stuck to the rest of yesterday's plan. Had WW mint chocolate chip ice cream + 2 Snackwell's devil's food cookies. :P - good

Today's breakfast was broken up as I had fasting blood work first thing. Had a Kashi Almond Flax bar right after the test, before driving home. I was too ravenous to wait another 25 minutes to get home, LOL! :P When I got home I had my other granola bar, the Nature Valley Oats & Honey, along with 1 c. FF milk, 2 c. black no sugar coffee and a medium banana. - good

Lunch will be a turkey sandwich, using multi grain sandwich thins, 6 slices thin deli turkey, Dijon mustard, 1 c. FF milk, 1 sm. apple and 1 serving of Ruffles baked chips (that's *TEN chips,* count 'em, LOL! :P - Good.....let's seee.....1,2,3,4......

Dinner we're having burgers. I'll have a Boca Vegan burger on sandwich thins, 1 slc. FF Kraft Singles Sharp Cheddar, lettuce, 1 tsp. Dijon mustard, 1 tsp. ketchup, 1 T. low fat mayo, 3 dill pickle slices. 1 c. FF milk. 1/2 c. Bush's baked beans.
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Sat, 05-29-2010 - 1:18pm
Well, I changed my dessert again. Wanted to get the most for a maximum of 2 pts. and still have a treat and a snack. So, I popped some popcorn in the microwave in a paper bag, and had 1 WW mint chocolate crisp bar (replaces what I *love* with popcorn, which are "Junior Mints!" YIKES! :O Can't have those in the house...).



Today I had my major granola bar fix w/ the Nature Valley Oats & Honey + the Kashi Roasted Almond Crunch. High point combo (7 pts) but hey, I wanted them! LOL! I am trying to be on about 21 pts. per day and use a few of the 35s weeklies per day. Which is around 7 points per meal for the daily points... So, I'm over on breakfast (10.5 total pts.), so will find low point lunch fixin's. :P Also had a medium banana, 1 c. FF milk, 2 c. black no sugar coffee.



Will have to think on low point lunch... Likely 1/2 c. Egg Beaters scrambled, 1/2 c. salsa, 1 dry toasted double fiber muffin, 1 med. fresh orange, 1 c. FF milk, for 5 pts. total.



Generally DH's & my traditional Saturday night supper is toasted cheese sandwiches and a low fat soup. I will have my Milton's whole grain bread, use Pam on it (not butter like DH gets), and use the Kraft FF Singles Sharp Cheddar cheese. Sandwich will be 5 pts., milk 2 pts. plus the soup, whichever we pick. We have a selection of soups. Usually 1-2 pt. per cup serving. So,



Also, got my fasting blood work labs done yesterday! And YAY! my blood calcium levels are back to normal now that I've had the tumor removed from my parathyroid back in March. My cholesterol levels are holding steady for the lower standard preferred due to my heart surgery:



OVERALL CHOLESTEROL: 124 (needs to be below 200)

TRIGLYCERIDES: 73 (needs to be below150)

HDL: 46 (should be above 45; I have a hard time w/ this but take a fish oil supplement 3x/day)

LDL: 63 (needs to be below 70)



Mika & I walked 65 minutes brisk yesterday + my 20 min. T'ai Chi Chih and stretching. :P Today is recuperative day off from walking for my hip, but will do the T'ai Chi Chih plus daily stretching, and maybe a short 30 min. walk w/ Mika, depending on how I feel after doing some grocery shopping shortly...



One day at a time... Happy weekend! ;))





Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



Photobucket



Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



Photobucket





Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photobucket



Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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