Jennifer's Journal of Random Updates =)

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Jennifer's Journal of Random Updates =)
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Sat, 05-08-2010 - 5:36pm

Hi All ~


Happy Mother's Day to all the moms on the board!!!


I know I am very sporadic in my posting here, but life is really crazy busy. I can not seem to get on and stay on any kind of routine for any length of time.


So here is where I am at:


Started the weight loss Journey in December of 2007 at a weight of 182, lost about 40 lbs and then it slowly found its way back home *sigh*. I started again a couple of months ago at a weight of 173 and I am currently holding at about 168. Not too shabby considering the distractions.


This month is super full of things to do. With Mother's Day tomorrow, the last day of school for the two seniors is about 2 weeks away. Me and SS have a birthday that we share which is also the last day of school. Then the graduation ceremony for the two kids and family coming to town the week after the last day of school.


In all of this, DH and I are under contract for buying a house. Since it is a short sale we are in the hurry up and wait mode. If all goes well we are hoping to close on June 1st with our move planned for the first weekend of June.


Not to mention...I have another international business trip sometime in June or July and vacation time in the midst of all that as well.


I cant remember the last time it has been so crazy with so much going on....now to be able to find a sense of balance. Not sure how to do that, but.....


So those are my updates and I hope to be able to post a better less stressed report with my next fly by posting. LOL


**but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isa

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Mon, 05-10-2010 - 8:11am
Happy to hear from you Jennifer!
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Mon, 05-10-2010 - 2:00pm

Hi Jennifer.....thanks for stopping by with an update! Wow, life is busy, huh? Good luck and congratulations with all you have going on right now!


Judy

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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 11:20am

So here I am...a month has passed since my last post on the board...*sigh*


I have gained more weight...


I am convinced at this point that when it comes to weight loss and dieting, I am a commitment phobe as well as ADD. I can not seem to stick with any plan or program as designed nor to I have the mindset to follow through with the committment. I am distracted by the chocolate cakes and the cookies and the pastas loaded with rich cream sauces or the french fries dipped in ranch dressing....oh and dont forget that fried anything tastes better than most anything else.

**but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isa

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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 11:48am
I think what you need to find is what can work in the long term.
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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 2:07pm
Any ideas or thoughts?? How do you all stay focused on the goal? How do you resist temptation?



First off *HUGE HUGS* to you! You sound like you have a LOT on your plate siphoning off your energy and focus. Sometimes it's really hard to carve out some time to nurture ourselves, physically as well as emotionally. :o\



Being on Maintenance has been a *huge* challenge for me. I go up then I get scared, and I go down. Seesawing. Not good. Not healthy. :(( Despite my determination *not* to repeat what I've done several times in decades past, which is to regain what I lost, I found myself creeping back to bad eating habits. I developed a sore hip (x-rays show no problems, so it's muscle issues) that interfered with my long walks with Mika. A couple of physical therapists (who ended up not really helping me, so I discontinued paying for them) as well as my chiropractor kept saying it was "overuse" injuries. That I'd gotten back up in mileage too fast too soon after my heart surgery last year. Well, the pain didn't begin until many many months later. So?? Anyway, to make a long story shorter, that all cut my mileage 'way back. But I kept eating above my Maintenance points. I had fallen into the old trap of thinking that now that I'd lost the weight, I could go back to eating the foods and not measuring, like I used to. Yeah, right. NOT! So, having regained some weight, I realized I had to do something before I got too far off kilter. I did not want a return to all the joint pain caused by the extra weight, either, and having to eat Motrin every day several times a day just to move. :// So mental warning bells sounded, and I landed back at my WW meetings and emailed my leader for support. The last meeting I *had* to pay as I'd gained enough weight past my goal that the meetings were no longer free. I had kept the online membership for cheaper, but hadn't been using it. So, I am back to keeping my eating journal and tracking online, and intend to go to meetings regularly again. I need that personal contact. I can't do it alone. DH does not understand, supportive as he tries to be. He's never fought the dysfunctional emotional/psychological connection to food I developed back in childhood. A source of comfort, self-nurturing when something goes wrong in my life or the stress goes up, or a source of celebration. :O How do I fight an addiction to food?! I can't stop eating like I quit smoking, LOLOL! :D



So, I "hear you." More HUGS! Here are my strategies, all ones I had when I was on the losing program at WW, but adapted to now, striving to maintain my loss:



1. Measure everything. Learn how to "eyeball" what a 1/2 c., 1 c., 3 oz. meat serving, 1 tsp. or 1 T. look like.



2. Reduce number of times doing take-out or eating out. In this economy saving that money means I can spend the money on healthier more expensive lower fat meats, and get fresh fruit & veggies. We eat at home. We prepare our meals *together.* Not just me. DH helps. :P That way I feel supported and our dinners are healthy for both of us. He does his own breakfasts and lunches, as do I.



3. Only buy reduced fat type snacks like crackers or chips. AND MEASURE when I eat them (I had returned to just having the box or bag and eating out of the containers and not measuring, so besides allowing myself these "treat" foods, I was overeating them). :(( I bought Sugar Free Jello cups/pudding cups, low fat oatmeal raisin cookies or Snackwell cookies that are lower fat. Ate according to serving size. Got WW ice cream cups or Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches. Or WW frozen Choc. Fudge bars or Latte bars. I don't buy or make other kinds of sweets. We simply don't have them in the house.



4. Like doing my T'ai Chi Chih practice, moving slowwwwwly, I again began to eat slowwwwwwly. Savoring small bites. And drinking lots of water with meals, along with my 1 c. FF milk. I eat only what's measured as a serving. And if I eat slowly and savor, I leave the table satisfied and not stuffed and overfull, or by overeating, feeling guilt and self-hate or discouragement...



5. I exercise every day. Lately that's been every other day on the walks as my hip recuperates. But I do stretching every day and split my T'ai Chi Chih practice up to 10 min. twice a day. It's all helping with my hip. Mika and I are slowly rebuilding our mileage and hopefully soon we'll be back to walking daily. :) I set myself a non compromise goal when I get up in the morning: I will do my exercise! I am worth it! And my DH needs to support me doing it! As well supporting better eating at home, etc. And when our DD was living with us, she was a part of that support. I support them in their endeavors; I *expect* and formally *ask* them to support me, also. And they do. ;))



6. My leader and her assistant have been leading WW meetings for over a decade. They shared with us at the last meeting that one of the reasons is because it keeps them on track. They are maintaining their weight loss, 10-15 years later. Because they live their new lifestyle. Sure WW requires them to weigh-in as leaders and maintain, to *be* leaders. That motivates them for sure! :P Plus, they stick to WW because they know all too well that by staying in contact with a group of people, both WW professionals as well as the individuals coming to meetings as members, with a common goal and commitment, keeps them focused and on track. We can all fall down now & again, and do, but if we cut ourselves off from the support system, it hurts most of us. We can't go it alone, with the dysfunctional societal and cultural attitudes toward foods, serving sizes, and so forth. And so connecting with people determined to stick to their new healthy lifestyle, both eating and exercising, is critical. I forgot that in the 2 months I did not attend meetings or track or measure, and I didn't come here, either. :( And I paid a price for it. So, I'm back at the "well" drinking in the focus and support. ;)



7. This is new: Each day I draw an affirmation card from a deck called Wisdom Cards by Louise L. Hay. I hug myself while I read the card, and I look myself in the eye in the mirror to tell myself I love myself, I am worthy of love, and I am worthy of the effort to get myself healthy, and keep myself that way. I do my T'ai Chi Chih which is also a moving meditation. And I pray to my Goddess & God. :) All of this nurtures my spirit, and at the same time, has had a profound influence on me returning to my WW program. Giving me a deeper reason to persevere. And I have come to understand this concern with "I," myself, is *not* "selfish" or destructive or robbing my family and those I love. It is in fact, by helping myself be healthy and balanced, I have more to give to my loved ones, more stamina and more inner strength to be there for them during tough times or challenges they are experiencing. Much more so than when I do not take good care of myself. Now, *this* idea is very foreign to the way many of us have been conditioned as women in our society and cultures, I think. So, for me, it is not "just" working on living a healthier lifestyle, its giving myself permission to do so! A bit mind-boggling for me to come to this realization. ;)



8. Last but not necessarily, least. :P Visualization. I learned this technique many years ago and have used it successfully to come back from injuries, surgeries, challenges in my life. I visualize myself as *being* what I want to become. Healing. Keeping the weight off. Healthy from exercise. Whatever that quality or healing or goal of personal growth might be. I *see* myself in my mind, thus sending that vision to the cellular level, to my body as well, as what I want to be. I look myself in the eye in the mirror, telling myself I can do whatever it is I need to do. Hey, they stopped my heart while they did my heart surgery. If I can survive that, I can make the changes and meet the challenges to come! ;))



So, I guess essentially it's a constant striving to balance body, mind & spirit. And asking for what we need from family & friends as well, in terms of support. And making our own health a priority that is *non-negotiable.* I'm still learning that, myself...



Don't give up, Jennifer! Love yourself! Take care of yourself! Come here and post! There's a great support system Sue has created here. HUGS! ;)




Blessings,

Gypsy

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Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

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the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



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Blessings,

Gypsy

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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 2:53pm

Sue ~


Those long term standards of weight loss and healthy eating

**but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isa

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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 3:13pm

Gypsy ~


You always have great advice to share.


In beginning my new Total Body Makeover (LOL) I will have to create my own babysteps.


Baby Step #1 - Drink 64 ozs of water or more each and every day
Baby Step #2 - Begin tracking/journaling food intake
Baby Step #3 - Measure all foods for journal to understand portion control/distortion
Baby Step #4 - Add healthier foods and remove unhealthy foods by using the journal for areas of improvement
Baby Step #5 - Add physical activities to enhance weight loss
Baby Step #6 - Maintain weight loss and activity goals by adjusting as needed


I see that this is easier said than done, but I also know that every day is a new day to start over. Although I gained most of the weight back, I have not gained it all back and therefore I get to start back with a small win of still being down 6 lbs.


Expecting an overnight change is unrealistic and it will take time to make all these changes a true habit. So I think the baby step process is the way that I need to go for me. If I cant make it a habit, I know that I wont stick with it. Trying to make everything a habit all at once will set me up to fail again.


The point on take out and eating out is going to be the big ticket item for me. We have been eating out a lot in the past couple of months due to all the activities going on.


I think the inspirationals will be good too. Everyone needs a daily dose of inspiration and motivation! =)


You are a continued inspiration to me and I am so glad to have you here helping to get me up and back on track.


Hugs!!!

**but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.

**but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Isa

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Sun, 06-06-2010 - 4:42pm

Sounds like a great plan! WTG! ;))

DH & I don't eat out or get take-out much. He even always takes his lunch to work. (I make a big enough Sunday night dinner for 5 little lunches for him.) :P

When I was off the wagon we *did* get more take-out and that put weight on me because there was no portion control. :o\ It's not giving up some favs completely that's needed so much as not doing it too often and splitting up into portions and saving some for lunch the next day, etc. Take-out and restaurant portions are 2-3 times what a healthy serving is! YIKES! :O

You sound like you're getting a handle on it! Baby steps, one step at a time makes good sense. They tell us that at WW, too. Add one focus per week, instead of all at once to start out. Eventually all will be added and done everyday. One step at a time. Feeling overwhelmed will just make us quit in discouragement. Not good... So hold your head up! ;) You're here and making a new beginning! YAY you!



Blessings,

Gypsy

)O(



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Strong like a mountain,

Flowing like a river."

~~Tai Chi Chih



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Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Photobucket



Mika Dog




"All things share the same breath;

the beast, the tree, the man.

The Air shares its spirit with

all the life it supports."

--Chief Seattle



"If there are no dogs in Heaven,

then when I die I want to go where they went."

~Will Rogers



"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress

can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

~~Mahatma Gandhi





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Blessings,

Gypsy

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Mon, 06-07-2010 - 9:46am
Baby steps are the way to go!
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Mon, 06-07-2010 - 3:14pm

Eating out is a huge problem for me, too! Between working f/t and my girls being involved in sports and other activities we are on the go from the time I pick them up until nearly bedtime. Living in a rural area,

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