Confused in Indiana

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Registered: 01-25-2007
Confused in Indiana
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Thu, 01-25-2007 - 12:38am

January 17, 2006...My husband's birthday. I found out I was pregnant. He was on medication that affected his way to think and react, so I figured I'd wait to tell him when he was off of the medication. I found out later that was a mistake. On the 23rd of January 2006, some stuff happened at the apartment and I got injured. Naturally, I defended myself but, it was already too late. Januray 24, 2006...I awoke, realizing I was bleeding too much and went to the hospital, only to find that I miscarried.

Now, a year later. I'm a little more than a week late. I checked the "10 Signs of Pregnancy" list, and I have all of them but two. The ones I don't have is the spotting...But, I am having minor cramps. And, obviously, I haven't taken a test yet. I plan to but, I'm terrified of the results. When I told my husband about the pregnancy (which he had found out the day of the miscarriage) he was upset over the loss and ticked at the "friend" who caused it. I put friend into quotation marks for a reason...This was a guy whom we considered to be a good friend of ours...Him and his pregnant fiance.

Now, I'm terrified though. I've been pregnant before I even met the man I married. And, I miscarried both times. Add in the one I had a year ago, and it will be three miscarriages total. If I am pregnant, what happens f history just reapeats again? Is it me? Is it my fault? Why would I deserve this? I have longed to start a family for years, even before meetig my husband. But, after the miscarriage last year, we had tried to conceive again. We eventually gave up, months ago, and he had begun saying that we just weren't ready. I'm also scared of what he'll say if I am.

I just don't know what to do now. My Mom is going out to buy me the test, since I asked her if she would. But, I'm terrified to use it when she does. I'm terrified of the results. If it says "yes", how would I tell my husband? And, if it says "no", how do I deal with the recurrent negatives? Either way, I'm scared of the outcome...Is that normal? What should I do?

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Registered: 08-02-2006
Thu, 01-25-2007 - 10:28am

Hi there,


I'm sorry for your loss, it sounds like an awful experience... I think that yes, it's very natural to feel scared at the idea of being pregnant. But before you can make any other decisions, and get more stressed over the results, you really should take a test. Then when you the answer one way or the other, you can begin to move forward. Good luck with everything, and please feel free to post back here for support. Keep us posted on how you're doing...


~Robin


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