Crazy Hope

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Registered: 03-14-2007
Crazy Hope
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Sat, 03-17-2007 - 7:07pm
Well... I guess I can't be preggo. AF was due this past Sunday and she never came. Had some slight symptoms but never got a positive hpt. Thought I had a faint one Wednesday but tested neg the next morning. Went to the doc Friday and she only would do a urine test since I don't have ins. Was neg. And woke up this morning with AF and kinda bad cramps. AF though is somewhat abnormal. Much lighter than usual (one and a half pads all day usually two to three by now... sorry tmi) and an odd mix of mostly light brown blood and very dark (not exactly bright) red blood. I guess with this and the cramps and all the neg tests I'm not pregnant but I am so dissapointed that I can't get the hope out of my head that somehow I could be still. This wouldn't have been an actually planned pregnancy but a weclome one none the less. DH says not to be upset because we will try next month as we both became very excited about this. I just can't stop wishing it was really true NOW.....
I don't understand because the sex was even at the right time of my cycle and the week after last AF I had cramps started having very faint nausia and slightly sore bbs... I just feel so crazy and stupid that I even thought I was and that I am still wishing. I got AF so I should just try to get over it now.
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Registered: 07-12-2006
In reply to: cablegirl527
Sun, 03-18-2007 - 6:45am
I know completely how you feel. That is how we began starting to TTC for #2. It took me 5 mths of heartache till I got my BFP. But it does make you that much stronger. Take you prenatals everyday. Try not to make it a "Job" it's hard not too. GL.

Katie

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