getting disappointed

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 1:13pm

So, here's my background. My lmp was on may 31st, I was on a 28 day cycle until the last 2 cycles, when it was 31 days. I don't chart or temp, but I'm usually pretty aware of my CM throughout my cycle. Well, so I was expecting AF anywhere from June 27th to June 30th. Now it's July 5th and still no AF. I thought that I might be pg back in the week from June 17th-June 21st. I had cramps, sore bbs, lots of nausea, moodiness, lots of CM, was tired alot. So, I took an hpt, bfn (no surprise, since I figured that was waaay too early), and then last weekend I really started to feel better. All those symptoms went away, and I thought, ok, AF is probably on her way (right on time). The week I was really feeling pg, I was so sure, that I made a dr's appt for a blood test. I ended up cancelling it b/c I just thought that AF was going to arrive and plus by the time my appt came around, I was feeling much better. DH and I bd'd w/out him pulling out (our usual bc method) around the 26th and 27th because I thought that it was so close to when AF was supposed to arrive, I figured we'd be safe. But on the morning of the 27th I noticed some very EWCM.

So, anyways... back to now. I still have no AF, I tested on Monday, and it was BFN. I don't know what to think. I mean I'm thinking that AF is just late because I was stressed out and maybe I o'd late, probably around the time me and DH BD'd. Well, I made another appt for a blood test tomorrow... I'm not very hopeful b/c I just don't "feel" pg at at all. Except that I've had the tiniest bit of spotting twice. Once it was only barely there on the tp, and then a week later, I noticed that I had kind of light, light pink, mixed with whitish, yelllowish mucus when I had gone to the bathroom (sorry for the TMI!) and that's it. I just don'tknow what that could be. I guess I'll have to wait to see what my Dr. says...

I'm mainly just venting b/c I've never been this late before. I was really surprised the last 2 months when I went a whole 31 days in my cycle. So now I'm at 36 days, and still getting BFN on the hpts. Ugh! Waiting is just not fun.

Has anyone else ever gone through feeling really pg one week, then not at all the next, and then actually ended up being pg?

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 1:39pm

hi, I can relate to feeling pg one week and then not at all the next... I do know how the not knowing can drive you crazy!!! it might be too early for you on a hpt but I bet the blood test will tell you for sure.

I just went for a blood test this morning- they said it can detect within a couple weeks of conception so you should get an accurate result when you go tomorrow.

I've posted a couple times but didn't really get replies and I could really use someone to talk about this stuff. My dh wants me to be pg but I don't want to get his hopes up by talking too much about it. I took off the bc patch on 5/7, started af on 5/10 and haven't had af since. I know it can take a few months for your cycle to get back to normal after stopping bc, but I can't shake the feeling I'm pg. Last hpt I took was a week ago 6/28 got bfn. I decided not to take another one till I find out the results from my blood test this morning. I'm going nuts waiting for the call. A few weeks ago I was jogging and got bad cramps which totally freaked me out and I didn't run again for a while. then the next week I took hpt got bfn so I went back on the treadmill and ran great. That week I didn't feel pg! then it started again the following week I got really tired while running I couldn't keep going. Now I feel pg again and I'm waiting for the call. I have one hpt left but I'm not going to take it, AAAAAAAGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHH!!! Well thanks for listening to me ramble, sorry if I didn't help you at all but I feel better getting this out!!!

Best luck to you, keep us posted!

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 1:52pm

Hey, no problem... I find myself rambling alot on this message board! :) Actually, I think I'm on this board so much, it's borderline obsessive...haha! Well, I hope you get that call ASAP and you get the answer you want. The week that I felt pg, I told DH about it and just kept saying that he really didn't think I was. I felt kind of disappointed by that, b/c even though we're not really trying right now, we (hopefully) will be very soon, and so it would be ok and actually, pretty wonderful to me, if I was pg now. So, you went in for a blood test this morning??? You think they'll have the results to you today? Oh, that would be great if my dr's office can get the results for me that soon too. I guess one of the reasons I'm feeling not so hopeful, is because I think AF might be late only because I O'd late this month.

I dunno... I guess I'll just have to wait and see. I just hear so many people say that you'll just "know" when you're pg, and I'm pretty intuned w/my body so I feel like I would just "know", ya know? I just soooo don't feel pg now, well, other than the wierd spotting that I had twice, and a tiny bit of cramping...

Waiting is just no fun at all!!! ;)

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 2:27pm

I've been obsessive about the board too lately-- I just started looking at it when I didn't get af after stopping bc in May, now I can't stop reading it all the time I am hooked!!!

Sounds like you are really excited to start ttc, I am happy for you. what an exciting time! the anticipation, enjoy it every minute because once you get that bfp then it's just a snowball of wonderful craziness that never ends. think of this as the calm before the fabulous storm LOL

I have no idea when/if I even did ovulate so I don't even know if I'm late or anything. maybe that's true for some women "you'll just know when you're pg" - it sounds really dreamy like a movie but I don't think it's really true for everyone. I never believed I was pg with my first ds until I saw the ultrasound, and even then it still doesn't seem real till you hold that baby in your arms!!! I'm with you I flip flop, who the heck knows!!!

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:01pm
Haha...speaking of flip-flopping, I believe we're posting to each other on 2 different boards!! :)
Well, I'm certainly hoping that my not feeling very preggo right now doesn't mean anything. Because at the same time, I soooo don't feel AF coming on either, so I'll take that as a good sign too! :)
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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:28pm

Sorry to jump in on your conversation but I wanted to say that I'm in the same boat! Actually, sitting right now waiting for the drs office to call about my blood work. LMP June 1st, doesn't even seem like AF is on her way, pg symptoms until last week when they started to subside.

Just wanted to say you aren't alone!

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:38pm

Hi there! Sure, the more the merrier... it's so much better to have someone to obsess with, isn't it? :) I really am not feeling preggo at all, but I guess only the blood test tomorrow will tell. I honestly thought about a week ago, I was 100% pg, but then *poof* they just sort of disappeared. After reading all the posts about how everyone has all these symptoms, then got a BFP, I am starting to get discouraged, that it's all in my head...

So, you're expecing your dr to call today w/your results? Are you hoping it's a positive or negative?? Either way, I hope you get the answer you're looking for... :)

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:41pm

wowee! I am thinking the most positive thoughts for you (and for me too!) thanks for jumping in!! I just called and the nurse said my results are in but she can't give it to me before clearing it with the nurse I saw this morning

AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

she promised they'd call me back today. pins & needles, pins & needles!!!!!!!

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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:49pm
Well, it was only our first month trying and the first month off of BCP. I just called and she said it was negative (I'm pretty sure... I was in a daze!). I do have to leave this board for awhile although we will keep trying. I just don't know how much longer to wait for AF before calling my GYN. Good luck!
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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:53pm
Ugh! Seriously?? Couldn't she have just put you on hold to "clear it" with the other nurse?? Sheesh! :) That would drive me batty....
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Wed, 07-05-2006 - 3:56pm
Aw, sorry it was negative...maybe this will help you get familiar your O date, and all that other stuff, so that next month you can up your chances of getting that BFP! Best of luck to you and please keep us posted on how you're doing... :)
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