I don't have the stomach to try again
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| Sat, 09-20-2003 - 11:44pm |
It took half a year to conceive first one. Then it took over a year after regular af returned to conceive second. Will it take a year and a half to conceive another one. I just don't think I can take that much disappointment. I'm not even sure if I'm ovulating, and my sleep schedule is too jacked up to chart bbt. On top of it being af, I've got very painful sciatica going on.
I just want to cry. In fact, I have cried. I get so jealous of my brother-in-law and his wife. They have always conceived on their first month trying. And they don't seem to give much of a flying flip about their kids! And dh and I wan't a whole slew, and we have trouble!
OK now I'm feeling guilty because I know some of you out there haven't had the luxury of even having two kids. And some of you have had to go through a lot more than me to get the ones you have. I'm just so frustrated right now. DH says let it go. It will happen when it happens. It's so easy to say that when your a man. You don't have to live with it day in and day out. Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.
We'll see.

Cara
I know how hard it is to hear just relax and it will happen, but ever since I found this board it has made me obsess too much, so this month I had to back off a little and try to force myself to relax. I have a hard time getting into anything because(sorry TMI coming) I'm not one who is crazy about sex. I had an incident happen to me when I was younger that I think affects me now. So anyway I had to find a way for me to enjoy it a little bit. LOL Try to use other things to take your mind off of it and enjoy that time. Don't stop trying if you want something bad enough, your heart will get you through it. I know what you mean by saying others who could care less get it, but then we who want it the most, can't. Keep trying at the very most it will be fun trying. Keep me posted and if you ever need to talk my e-mail is jennybrown22@hotmail.com
Have you considered talking to your OB about the problems. Considering your history, maybe they can do something to help.
On a lighter note, my almost 3 year old finally went pee on the potty today, I might just have one out of diapers before another comes along after all;) LOL
Jen
Edited 9/21/2003 8:15:18 AM ET by jenbrown3
Jen
Proud Mommy to
Once again I've got my hopes up and I hope I'm not disappointed.
Steffanie
I want to have another one but if not then that is okay but if i do then it will happen when i am meant too.
I would like to email you further and cchat some more if you would like then let me know and we can :) in the meantime keep your chin up and it will happen:)
madison
I do need to see my ob and make sure everything is alright. But after that, I do just need to relax. We'll see if that's possible. After years of trying not to get pregnant, then switching to trying to get pregnant, it's hard to just ignore fertility. It will be a good excersize for me in patience.
I just get frustrated sometimes, and it's nice to be able to vent. Thanks.
Kate