I'm So Confused

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Registered: 10-20-2003
I'm So Confused
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Mon, 10-20-2003 - 3:41pm
Okay, I dont know if Im pregnant or not. Im testing this week but Im just so anxious to find out...I'm seventeen years old and im not out having sex but I think I was raped..Im not sure..Im SO utterly confused. I woke up, after a weird but VERY vague dream of being raped by my stepfather, and my body was shaking...I was jolted from my sleep...now I usually sleep on my stomach, so when i awoke on my backside with my knees up and my "down there" area throbbing and contracting like crazy..I WAS TERRIFIED..I tried to put it all to rest but..the thing is...now I made the connection with my "spotting" cuz I didnt think women bled after they got prengnant...I was so cluless..and now IM SUPER emotional, much more than ever, and im nauseus all day, vomiting (especially in the morning), i just get so angry and frustrated...and i want to eat all the time..well its either im starving or not hungry at all...sometimes my vision goes nuts like I cant see well for a second..sort of fades in and out..and i dont know what to think....im so very confused. please, someone offer some advice PLEASE!!? :(

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Registered: 09-25-2003
Mon, 10-20-2003 - 3:50pm
Sweetie - I am so sorry about your situation. You should see a doctor and get tested. When did this happen? Have you missed your period yet?

I wish you all the best, and please let us know what happens.

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Mon, 10-20-2003 - 4:04pm
I did get period..like a week and a half/two weeks later than usual but I got it..someone i asked said u can still be preg, and get your period..idk *cringes* i want a baby but..im so scared..I dont think I am pregnant..what do you think? i dont know WHAT to think...my stepdads pretty agressive and all..and ive heard he might have been wicked abusive to my stepbrothers awhile back..i dont trust him and im SO confused...*sighs* i cant think straaight and i feel like a baloon..either VERY upset or just down right depressed with no energy

Edited 10/20/2003 5:51:12 PM ET by wishfulthoughts17


Edited 10/20/2003 5:51:55 PM ET by wishfulthoughts17

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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 2:24pm
BUMPing :(
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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 2:31pm
Sweetie it sounds like you have multiple issues here. The first thing I would do is contact the authorities or go to the hospital. The hospital can examine you and see if in fact you were raped. You must be a heavy sleeper - but it could have happened. Also, "spotting" after sex could simply be the results of having sex and not implatation. I would go see a doctor. And then if it's confirmed, the police. Right away.
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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 3:13pm
thankyou :) im supposed to go to a clinic on thrsday but i dont have any money..i tried to tell them that...and its gunna cost me 20+ $ and i dont even have more than a dollar..im still looking for a job..*cries* im scared cuz i feel like its all just some stupid dream and all but i dont understand the symptoms at all...im still a virgin or at least i think i am..so ive never spotted before...*looks down at the floor*
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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 3:56pm
you need to tell your mom about this, even if you tell her that you're not sure whether it happened or if it was a dream. if this guy could even have possibly done this to you, she needs to hear it, whether you're pregnant or not. and hopefully, she'll go with you to a clinic, even if it's just to reassure herself that he didn't do it. you'll be in my thoughts, good luck and lots of strength!

*anna~rae*

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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 5:01pm
thanks but..see..my mom doesnt really..well..lets just say, even if i told her I KNEW he raped me..she probably wouldnt even believe me..shed prob kick me out of the house..she wants to be married, no matter how mean he is to me OR HER. they fight a lot..but i dont want to come between them. if he raped me..ill just run away i guess. in many ways i hope he did...i want out of my family..theyre not loving..and i want my own family. i dont doubt its VEERY hard and it costs a ton, but Im willing to devote my life to it. I want a baby so badly..I'd feel bad if I did though because the baby wouldnt have a father...but im pretty sure im not pregnant..im just showing a ton of signs and i want to make sure


Edited 10/21/2003 5:08:56 PM ET by wishfulthoughts17
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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 5:44pm
I just realized how much more CM ive got..and MAJOR bloating..i dont usually get this..its sort of scaring me...so lets see with my vomiting and nauseua for the past 3 weeks, constant urination, constant eating or feeling too sick to eat, feeling full waaay too fast, headaches constantly, dizzyiness, Mood swings to the moon, and aches all over im getting concerned here!!!! *cries* i mean like i said, i want a baby...i do..but what my chances are SOOOOO slim, so im worried its something else!!!
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Registered: 05-20-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 5:57pm
Oh honey. What a horrible thing to be going thru!

OK - break it down for me.

When was your last AF? How long is it between your AFs?

When was this "dream"?

How long before you expect AF?

There are planned parenthood places that should offer free pg tests for someone your age. Or you could call a church - I'm sure someone there would be willing to help you out: Pay for the test, go with you to a clinic if you want them to, and help you get away from your current situation.

Please, please keep posting and let us help see you thru this.

With all my thoughts and prayers,

Melinda
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Tue, 10-21-2003 - 6:04pm
I was supposed to get AF on 9/25 and i got it 10/5 (im not sure on exact date) and now im getting all this stuff..ppl say u can have your AF and still be PG but Idk...but with all these symptoms im getting scared. I have a hard time concentrating ya know? :( Im wondering if I was O when/or if i conceived cuz it happened right before i was supposed to get my period..i have no clue what that means. this dream happened like 6 weeks ago i think..im so confused!!!

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