I'm So Confused

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Registered: 10-20-2003
I'm So Confused
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Mon, 10-20-2003 - 3:41pm
Okay, I dont know if Im pregnant or not. Im testing this week but Im just so anxious to find out...I'm seventeen years old and im not out having sex but I think I was raped..Im not sure..Im SO utterly confused. I woke up, after a weird but VERY vague dream of being raped by my stepfather, and my body was shaking...I was jolted from my sleep...now I usually sleep on my stomach, so when i awoke on my backside with my knees up and my "down there" area throbbing and contracting like crazy..I WAS TERRIFIED..I tried to put it all to rest but..the thing is...now I made the connection with my "spotting" cuz I didnt think women bled after they got prengnant...I was so cluless..and now IM SUPER emotional, much more than ever, and im nauseus all day, vomiting (especially in the morning), i just get so angry and frustrated...and i want to eat all the time..well its either im starving or not hungry at all...sometimes my vision goes nuts like I cant see well for a second..sort of fades in and out..and i dont know what to think....im so very confused. please, someone offer some advice PLEASE!!? :(

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Registered: 08-10-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 6:08pm
Listen Honey, There are places you can go to if you are scared you might be hurt again.

I went to a place called The Link House. I don't know where you are from but theres got to be a place were you can get out of that house! Look it up on your computer, There are places for teens, that have been raped, abused, ectr,... Please get some help.

And, Don't take this the wrong way, But, I just want to tell you that Jesus loves you, and he sees you, and if you turn to him, He will help you!

Your friend, Angie
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Registered: 05-20-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 6:10pm
Ok - well if you got your regular AF after the dream - then I wouldn't worry.

But if your AF was different than you still might be pg. Your appt should give you a definate answer of whether you are or not. Tell them about your dream and let them check to see if you have been raped. Even if it wasn't the time to conceive - you still need to get the answer to this questionable dream.

I know you are looking for LOVE, but having a possible rape baby is not your answer.

I have to sign off the computer for the day, but promise I will be back in the morning to check on you.

All my best!

Melinda
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Registered: 10-20-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 6:16pm
yeah i know about the normal/abnormal AF and what it means but...like i cant remember if it was normall...i dont remember cramps or anything...is that not normal if i always have cramps? idk
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Registered: 04-15-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 6:38pm
I deff. think you have MUCH bigger issues then a possible pregnancy here. Please respect yourself and get some help!

I wish the best for you.

Rachel

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Registered: 10-20-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 7:47pm
I don't want this to sound the wrong way - but why would you want a baby with your step-father? Even having a baby as the result of a rape, that's something I don't know that I'd be particularly looking forward to no matter how much I want a baby. It sounds to me like you really want someone to love you. I'm so sorry your home is not somewhere you find that love. There are many places you can go - including battered women's homes if indeed you were raped and if he threatens you with bodily harm. I hope and pray that you get out of this situation - baby or not and find the loving home you deserve.


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Registered: 10-20-2003
Wed, 10-22-2003 - 12:03pm
yeah i see your point..but i mean i guess it would be a lucky situation if anyone was going to have to be impregnanted by their stepdad cuz i hate my stepdad and id of course keep the baby..a lot of ppl are close with their folks but this would tear them apart and the girl might abort...id NEVR do it myself.. Idk..im just trying to be positive if it is..which is very unlikely.. :-/ im just so confused.

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