Not sure, need to talk tho

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Registered: 08-16-2005
Not sure, need to talk tho
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Wed, 08-23-2006 - 12:57pm

Hey,

I'm really not sure what the situation is right now. but i just need to let it all out and talk to someone about all this.

I'm supposed to get my period this week. It normally comes between wednesday and thursday of period week. So, i know that i really shouldnt be worrying. I took a pregnancy test yesterday morning, doing everything i could to make sure it would come up negative. since i have anxiety, i thought that once i saw the negative, my mind would stop finding symptoms. This did work for a little while, until last night. My stomach has been feeling very tight or bloated. it feels a lot bigger right now than it is. i'd rate it around a 3-4 on the pain schedule. the pain has been focused mainly on the right side of my stomach, kinda lower stomach. I had an ovarian cyst a few years ago, so i know that pain, as well as my period pain, and this isnt in the same spot at all. both the above two were lower than the stomach and in the center.

Last night, i was snuggling against DUF (unofficial fiance lol) when he noticed that i felt warm. He said that it wasnt unusually warm, or felt like i was sick, just a little warmer than normal. I woke up feeling that same pain in my stomach and have it right now. also, i checked the mucus ( i dont know if this is right) but it was very clear.

i am on ortho tri-cyclen, and have taken it every day this month, just sometimes not at the right time...i did miss a day, but i doubled up the next day.

this also might be the anxiety talking, but im feeling like i might have jinxed myself into this. if this is true, the due date would be in the beginning of may...the date i had always hoped for. i can't talk to DF about this yet. His SIL just got herself pregnant, their in early 40's (I'm 23, he's 25) The two kids they already have are sooooo screwed up, and she decided she wanted another child and stopped taking the pill.

i have an appt with pp tomorrow at 11. it's just a yearly check up, but i hope that they'll definitely be able to find out.

thank you guys so much for listening to all this! it really helps to get it out :)

Lizzie

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Registered: 08-02-2006
Wed, 08-23-2006 - 3:37pm

Hi Lizzie!

~Robin

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Registered: 08-16-2005
Wed, 08-23-2006 - 4:41pm

Hey :)

thank you so much for your response. i'm trying not to let myself worry too much about this, and knowing that tomorrow i have that appt does really help. i was wondering tho, i know they take a urine sample upon arrival, but i wasnt sure whether they automatically check for pregnancy or its just another test.

i've been feeling really strange all day. i keep feeling like i have my period. i'm sorry if this is TMI, i just really dont know. it will feel like i'm leaking, but then it's just very clear, and kinda watery. i also have these random bouts of nauseousness, but thats normally just when i lie down.

unfortuantly, i cant remember much of this month. its been marked by so many different stressful events. the month began with my youngest sister in Israel, and DF and I anxiously watching the news every night until she got home on the 6th. Then, i lost my job. it's a very long story, but i thought i was fired, then got a call that night to come back. i go in the next day and i'm given the silent treatment by everybody in my department except 2 people, lol and those two were not the managers. i forgot to vacuum a room!!!!! they talked about me in front of me, behind my back, just not to me. So after my sunday break, i didnt come back. I then found another job, and got hired. Only to learn on monday night that my grandma had a heart attack. I went to work at this job for 2 days, but then had to go downstate to spend time with her. She's doing a lot better now :) they just took her off the ventilator! Because of this, i lost that job. lol so i decided that this week was going to be Lizzie's emotional vacation week! lol at least i got to enjoy monday of it :) this month we did have a lot of sex tho, lol so i guess i can look at that in a positive way that it was a lot of fun! after almost 4 years of being together, sex months dont come as often anymore lol

i dont remember which day was the double up days, thinking about it now, there may have been more of them. normally i pride myself on my memory, but i really dont know :(

thank you again so much tho for listening and taking the time to respond! i'll definitely let you know what happens after my appt tomorrow morning. i want to ask df to go down with me to the appt, but i dont really want to tell him. i would just like it that if it is positive, the nurse can tell him. this is his first set of two days off after working 10 days straight. btw, looking at the symptoms, how likely do you think it is? i'm sorry for asking so many questions. thank you again tho

Lizzie

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Registered: 07-06-2004
Wed, 08-23-2006 - 6:41pm

Hi Lizzie,
I'm sorry to hear that you've been having such a difficult month... I hope your Grandma gets better. :) About your symptoms, how bad is the pain? You said about 3 or 4, is it so bad that you have to stop what you're doing? I don't want to scare you but moderate to strong pain on one side can be a sign of an ectopic pregnancy. If you don't know what that is (though you probably do) it's an embryo that has implanted outside of the uterus. If your pain gets any worse, or you start bleeding heavily and it doesn't seem like your af, you should get to emergency right away. Since you said the pain wasn't that bad you most likely do not have an ectopic pregnancy but I felt I had to tell you just in case. Otherwise your symptoms sounds like pregancy symptoms but they can also be pms symptoms I suppose, or just a bit of an hormonal imbalance. So at your appointment be sure to tell them about the pain on one side. Good luck!! :)

Linda

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