oh my....

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Mon, 01-14-2008 - 9:58pm

/ok so i lurk on here to see everyone elses bfp....i haven't been keeping track of af since i had my dd, nov 06. i had my tubes tied. maybe it is my fear of being pg again, but i came in this afternoon after shoveling the driveway thinking gawd my bbs hurt, burn like they did when i was pg. i have been cramping for about a week now thinking ok, af is on it's way. i would absolutely die if i was pg again! i need some come af vibes, and pass the baby vibes onto those who need it! i have 2, am 36, soon to be 37 and am done, and i mean done, having children! i am so afraid that the doc didn't really tie my tubes!!*LOL* i know it sound weird but i had a c-section and said while you are in there, tie the tubes! after they pulled ashlyne out, the doc came around and asked me if i was sure that is what i wanted because i sure make pretty babies...(not to be full of it, but both my kids are adorable, gerber baby look alikes, right to the blonde curly hair and bright eyes and fat cheeks...) i said absolutely sure and he said ok and left the room and left another doc in charge! what if she didn't do it????? omg i'm going to die....i can't afford another one! with daycare prices, after i pay for a sitter, one paycheck a month will go to daycare alone! i would so much rather that money go to the kids i have and their future college, kwim?? i know several ppl who have gotten pg when they have had their tubes tied...omg what if i am one? please oh please let af come...never thought i would say that in my life after 10 yrs of ttc!!


btw...as a story of inspiration...i had my ds after 11 yrs of marriage, most of which were ttc, some of which were not. it was on again, off again, things popped up, got scared, af messed up, tumors, m/cs etc...too long to go into but we started with adoption in '03....we were in the home study phase, and i found out i was pg after several m/c's...didn't think much of it with my history of m/c, and in july 04 my son was born, all 22" 10lbs of him....i was happy with one. never went on bc, figured it took us over 10 yrs for him to arrive, then in feb 06, less than 2 yrs after grant arrived, i found out i was pg again. sAme thing, not holding my breath...then in nov

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Sat, 01-19-2008 - 9:44pm
So did AF ever show?

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Sat, 01-19-2008 - 11:04pm
yes, she finally showed, just yesterday and quite full force, too. wish the ho stayed away (but not be pg, she is just very heavy!!). so now i'm am officially holding her hostage so that everyone gets a bfp this month that wants one!! dh started laughing because he knew i was late, and how i'd been feeling, and he even made the comment "you were really afraid you were pg, huh?" ummm yeah! more than he could realize!! ironic how for so long i waited for
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Sat, 01-19-2008 - 11:21pm
Well, I'm glad she showed.
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