Riding the fence...

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Riding the fence...
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Sun, 12-10-2006 - 11:45pm

Hi, 'Yal!!

Okay, lmp was 11-12-2006. Thought I ov'd on 11-22-2006. Had sex until 2 weeks ago in preparation for ov'n. In the last 5-6 days, have been feeling crampy (almost like a stretching), very weepy, frequent urination, nauseau and sensitivity to smells and sounds (mostly in the evening), breast tenderness, and recently my breasts have resumed making a considerable amount of milk (yellow, oily colostrum to be exact - I'm a former b'fing veteran - stopped nursing in Aug of this year). Well, my period was due today, and I started crampy, and broke out in zits (like usual), and then the cramps cooled down a bit. Towards the end of the day, I wiped after the restroom, and there was bright pink mucous, with lines of pink through it (I'm so sorry for t.m.i.). I figured it was period, but husband said he thinks it's implantation. Never bled anymore. Up to now, I've had all neg hpt's, but I thought that I'd read somewhere that hCg doesn't start up until implantation is successfully, taking almost a week to reach detectable levels. So, does it seem likely I'm preggers, or am I setting my hopes too high? I should be thankful for the toddler I have; and I am. But I want a sib for him, and I just found the midwife of my dreams. Any thoughts, anyone? The real kicker for me is the colostrum. I was pretty much done with leaky milk, and even so it was only scarce amounts of white, mature milk - not yellow colostrum.

Please help sway my opinion - I'm riding the fence.

Jennifer, Proud SAHM to Benjamin Michael

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Wed, 12-13-2006 - 9:51pm

So what happened?

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Wed, 12-13-2006 - 11:24pm

Thanks for reading my post; unfortunately, things aren't happy anymore. I went to the docs today, and they found a big cyst in my left ovary (causing pain and spotting) and are testing for thyroid (preventing my period). But no baby. Then later in the day, I started my period, and a few hours later, I went to the restroom, had a lot of abdominal pain, and passed a "blob" of tissue. I know it won't ever be confirmed, but I believe that I originally implanted, started having all the s/s of pregnancy, at some point, it died, and now once that's happened, my period finally started and expelled the products of pregnancy. Earlier today, I was having what I absolutely swear were contractions in my uterus. It all makes perfect sense to me. Maybe I'm just crazy, though...Like I said, it will never be confirmed, but it's the only thing that puts my mind at ease and makes me believe I will one day be able to conceive again (I already have a beautiful 17 mos old son!).

Thanks once again! Jennifer

Jennifer, Proud SAHM to Benjamin Michael

Benjamin M

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Thu, 12-14-2006 - 12:35am

There was just another thread on here about leaking breast and she wound up pg. I would deff take another test in a day or two. Good luck


Ps. That sounds like implantation to me too.

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Thu, 12-14-2006 - 11:12am

Christina,

Thanks for your reply. Unfortunately, I'm not pregnant (as confirmed by a pelvic exam, blood work, and urinalysis). And that's okay, because it's giving me a second chance to clear up some resounding health issues that could eventually kill me (I need to lose 60 awful pounds - I'm starting the fight of my life! - and I have PCOS).

What I'm replying for is to congratulate you for breastfeeding. SOOO GOOD FOR YOU!! I think too few women breastfeed, and then too few of the ones who do ever get a standing ovation for all the time and effort and sweat and tears that go into the process. I'm the mommy of a former booby-baby of 13 mos - he's now 17 mos old, and sadly doesn't even show any signs of remembering it :( It was the hardest thing I've ever done, and yet the absolute best. Ben was actually hospitalized for a week at about 5 days old, because when we got home, we couldn't get the hang of b'fing, and he dehydrated - talk about guilt! Even in the hospital, everybody (all except the head pediatrician) tried to encourage me to "allow" myself to just bottle-feed. But I stuck to my guns, and once he learned to latch, he NEVER stopped! He was constantly a booby-baby! He was sooo pudgy and cute during those early months! Now, he's the healthiest, happiest baby I know (and that's not just my thoughts - it's resounded by our doctor, people in public, and friends and family). He has so much more immunity in comparison to my BF's 3 kids who were all bottle-fed.

Soooo....long story short, WAY TO GO, GIRLFRIEND!! I'm giving you a standing round of applause! Keep going with the best gift you could ever give your baby!!

Jennifer

Jennifer, Proud SAHM to Benjamin Michael

Benjamin M

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Thu, 12-14-2006 - 12:58pm

Im sorry your not pg. I hope those pounds melt off and you get your bfp!


I had a little trouble in the beginning too. I had to go back in for some help with her latch when she was 5 days old. And ever since then things have been going great. I have always wanted to bf. even though When its time to stop I know its going to be sad. I feel so close to her. Thanks for the encouragement. :-)

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Thu, 12-14-2006 - 7:23pm
Well, I'm sorry to hear that.
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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 9:23am

Sorry to hear about your BFN and I know in the future, you'll get the outcome that you've been looking for.

I commend all mothers that breastfeed their babies. I breastfed my daughter for 6 months. She never did get the hang of latching on. We saw numerous lactation consultants and doctors to figure out what the problem was, but noone could give me an answer. The technique was right and she was a sucker. lol So, my only choice was to pump. I pumped my heart out (and felt like a moo cow) for her.

She is now almost 6 years old and has NEVER had an ear infection, and has only been sick with a low-grade fever ONCE in her entire life. She hasn't even had a cold (knock on wood). I think, as mothers, we have to sacrifice to ensure we pass on our antibodies and perfect nutrition to our babies, so they can live healthier lives.

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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 11:12am
I pumped for my son for the first 6 months of his life too. he never latched on good because he was 6 weeks early. i will do it again too because it was so much cheaper than formula.

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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 12:57pm
I would too if my next one can't latch on properly! There's nothing better for babies than mother's milk!
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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 6:27pm

Thanks for the support; I am truly finding this board to be very supportive. I completely agree about the breastfeeding - and way to go with the pumping (not such an easy task). I remember once, I had to go to my mom's divorce hearing with her, and it took the whole day. I had to pump in the middle, but the courthouse wasn't very accomodating, so I wound up with my electric pump plugged into the wall in the public bathroom, the cord leading into one of the stalls, where I'd propped a chair, and the constant "whee, ew, whee, ew, wheee, ew..." of my electric pump rhythmically running. A couple of people came in, and I could hear them stop, kind of puzzled, looking at my set-up. It was sooooooo funny!! :) But, hey, I would do it again in a heartbeat; he was only so tiny and fragile for a little while.

Way to go BF buddy!! I think we all need to support each other and spread the word of how good it truly is!!

Jennifer

Jennifer, Proud SAHM to Benjamin Michael

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