Depression?

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Registered: 10-28-2009
Depression?
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Sun, 11-18-2012 - 7:29pm

Hey guys, I'm currently 24 weeks pg with twins following 11 IUIs, 3 IVFs and 5 losses. I would have punched myself had I know when trying to conceive that I wouldn't be blissfully happy with being pregnant no matter what...but truthfully I have been feeling a lot of depression and feeling overwhelmed. Mostly I still feel like I'm just waiting for the big let down (again, bc that's all I've known) and them I swing into feeling completely not prepared to have two babies. I read online it's very common to have depression following IVF/losses during a successful pregnancy, but I can't help feeling like a fool for feeling like this. Has anyone else gone through this? It's not every day, but I feel like its pretty often. I just want to know I'm not alone.

-Jamie

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Registered: 05-16-2012
In reply to: HRSAIC
Fri, 01-18-2013 - 7:54am

There is a really good publication from thte HRSA Information Clearinghouse that discusses depression during and after pregnancy available in both English and Spanish at http://ask.hrsa.gov/detail_materials.cfm?ProdID=3924

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Registered: 08-26-2008
Wed, 11-21-2012 - 11:38am

Nice that you get to check in on your babes once a month =)  Please KUP on how you're doing and how your appointment goes!

Caryn

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Registered: 10-28-2009
In reply to: jamieokc
Tue, 11-20-2012 - 5:13pm

My next appointment is Dec 10 for ultrasound, visit with MD and glucose test. I'm considered high risk as I'm 36 and having twins, so I get u/s every month!

-Jamie

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Registered: 08-26-2008
Tue, 11-20-2012 - 11:38am

So happy you are feeling better!!! And happy we can be support for you. When is your next appointment/ultrasound? I always love those sneak peeks =)

Caryn

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Registered: 10-28-2009
In reply to: jamieokc
Mon, 11-19-2012 - 6:27pm
Thanks ladies. I really just needed to vent. I'm feeling better today. I think I'm really missing these boards and need to get active on them again. They are such a lifesaver!

-Jamie

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Registered: 08-26-2008
In reply to: jamieokc
Sun, 11-18-2012 - 11:02pm

I'm sorry Jamie {{{HUGS}}} Like Chris said, I know a LOT of ladies feel this way. In my mind it's just like PTSD. You have suffered so long and hard to get where you are it's hard to let go of all that pain and just flip a switch to being a happy camper. Pregnancy is overwhelming no matter how prepared you are for it and to be expecting twins, while twice the blessing is also twice the overwhelmed feeling. There are some twin mamas I know of Facebook that I could link you up with if your interested. Please don't feel bad about feeling this way...if you think it would help to talk to someone I would encourage you to do that. Sometimes it can help just to talk to someone that doesn't have an emotional interest in your pregnancy and get all these feelings off your chest.

Thinking of you,
Caryn

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Registered: 01-11-2008
In reply to: jamieokc
Sun, 11-18-2012 - 8:46pm

Sending (HUGS) jame.. i am sure others have felt the same way.  I don't have any great advice. Whereas i didn't have depression I  really never felt like my pregnancy was real.  Even after all the u/s and the fat belly, i never turely felt that we would have a take home baby.  But it did work and Jake just turned 1.   I know its hard to move on after losses.. just take it one day at a time and relish in the fact that you have 2 healthy babies growing inside of you.  In a few months you will have those babies in your arms.   Then all the fun truely begins.  I also had apprehensions on how i would handle having a baby.. but it comes to you.  You'll be a great mom.

----"Never give up on something that you can't stop thinking about every second of every day."----

Chris